ZUDEMA

11999 April 01

I walked down the city street. It was late at night, and i had to get back. I walked to the south, between the tall stone buildings. It was raining, and i thought that i might start getting cold. I was not wearing my shirt. I could feel the cold rain soaking my sweat pants and running over my upper body. I thought that i should stop to put a shirt on. I had one in my back pack. I knew that my destination was quite a way down the hill from where i was, so i should stay warm. I turned to the right and looked at the stone stairs which led into the large building. I did not think that i would be able to go into the building as it would probably be closed this time of night. I walked up to the door and pulled on the handle. It was open, so i thought i would go in and change in the warmth of the building. It was dark and silent inside. There was a wide set of stairs which ascended from the doors. I knew that they led up to the main auditorium. I was standing on the right side of the stairs, looking at the corridor which ran through the stairs. There were two of them. They led to the lower levels of the chamber. The door was set into the stairs by about a metre and was gilded on the outside. There were black curved patterns on it. The door was ajar. I thought that it was strange that the place be left unlocked. I thought that it had some ceremonial significance. I wondered whether i should go into the main chamber. I decided that i needed to change my clothes. I placed my bag down to the right of the corridor and started to take my clothes out of it. I then noticed that someone else was walking in through the front doors of the building. I did not pay much attention to him at first, but he walked over to me and placed his hands on my shoulders. He then leaned against me and spoke softly into my face. He was trying to pick me up. I pushed him away. I realized that the front steps of this building must be a meeting place for people looking for easy sex. I told him that i was not interested and went back to getting my clothes out of my bag. The man shrugged and walked to the south, across the front hall. He then headed down the stairs and turned to the east. I looked down the stairs, which were illuminated from the lights below. I remembered that there was a homosexual club in the basement of this building. That was the reason why the building was open so late at night. I stood at the top of the stairs for a moment before a man and a woman came into view from around the corner of the stairs. The man was wearing a faded red shirt and a black leather jacket, which seemed very worn. I turned towards the door, thinking that i should leave. I walked towards the other people. I was in a large room, and everyone had gathered for something. I had been late. There was a man who was conducting us. He seemed to be a military officer. I thought that he might be a general. I put my backpack down on the chairs on the east end of the room. The row of chairs was aligned north to south. The others were gathered behind me, in the center of the north end of the room. The general was giving instructions to people. I did not feel like paying attention to him. I then noticed that the ceiling was covered with a large map. It was a topographic map of the world which was created by the uneven level of the ceiling. I realized that i could see the lower section of Europe and Turkey above me. I knew that i needed a good map of that area. I thought that i could simply take a photograph of the ceiling and use it as a map. I then wondered whether there was enough relief in the map to create shadows. I would have to have enough contrast to be able to make it out when i took the picture. I took my camera from the bag. The ceiling arched up and away from me near the chairs. I could see the depth of the detail over my head. It was deep enough to cast dark shadows, but i knew that i would not be able to capture the detail inside of the craters. I replied to the person to my right, who had asked me about them. I told him that the contrast of the photograph would not pick up the details in the shadow area. They would all come out as black. I walked back into the center of the room where the crowd was. I wondered for a moment whether i would be disobeying the orders of the leader. I could see that he was surrounded by a group of people. I thought that they were from the media. They were trying to interview him. I wondered whether the lights at the edge of the ceiling could be turned on. The sharp angle f the light would make the relief of the map more obvious. I walked to the south end of the room, looking up at the map. Someone then turned on the lights, but the map itself started to illuminate. The ceiling turned bright white, and i realized that i would not be able to take a picture of it. It looked like an inflated cloth balloon. There were metal strips which crossed the map, forming the grid lines of the map. I was disappointed and walked away from the side wall of the room. I seemed to be in $P4. It was late at night, and i had just come down the road from the west into town. Something seemed to be wrong. I noticed that several things around me seemed to be vandalized. I walked faster, hoping that someone did not blame me for the destruction. I then walked past the front of the public library. The large glass windows on the front of the building were broken, and the from room of the library was filled with torn books and broken furniture. I noticed someone assessing the damage as i walked by. I tried not to pay too much attention, because i did not want the person to notice me. I remembered that the previous night was Halloween, and i thought that some of the local children must have smashed up the library. I then realized that the man who was in sin the library was following me. I came to the steps at the edge of the building as i walked north. I hurried down the steps, hoping that the man would not follow. I was worried that he would blame me for destroying the library. I could hear the an following me down the stairs. I was anxious and moved faster as i walked to the southwest across the parking lot to the elementary school. I started to job jog as i rounded the south end of the building. I thought that i would head back to the road which led west, out of town. I saw the end of the side road which started just behind the school. I knew that it ran parallel to the main road through the small section of houses. It then reconnected to the main road. I moved quickly down the snowy path to towards the road. There was a woman and a young girl walking down the sidewalk on the other side of the road as i approached the road. They were heading for their car. The girl looked at me as i hopped into the wheel chair and started moving down the road. I started to pick up speed as i rolled down the road. The road seemed to be on a slight hill. I came to the corner where the road turned to the left to rejoin the main road. I turned the wheel chair around the corner. It seemed to skid to the right and tip slightly as i sped around the corner. I thought that i might be going too fast. I then came to the corner with the main road. I did not want to slow down because i knew that i would need the momentum to make it up the hill of the main road. I skidded around the corner to the right and started to head down the long narrow road which led to the west. I then dropped my jacket from the chair. I quickly stood up and stopped the wheel chair to walk back for my plastic running shell. I thought about the fact that i had lost all of my momentum. I wondered how hard it would be go get it back. I looked back down the road as i collected my things. I thought that the woman and the girl should have gotten in their car by now and were probably on their way down the road behind me. I looked back but was not sure whether i could see their lights. I then noticed the lights shining out from the side road. I wondered whether they would be turning towards me or be heading back to the town. I hoped that they were not heading towards me, as i did not have my stuff out of the road. I pushed the wheel chair to the south wall of the long hallway while i continued to pick up the clothing from the ground. I then realized that the woman had turned towards me, but her car was no longer in the hallway. I wondered where she had gone. I was standing at the west end of the long hall. There was a doorway to the north of me. An old man walked out of the door. He seemed annoyed at my presence. The room from which he came seemed to be a bathroom. I knew that it was late at night and that the man was wandering to the toilet in the middle of the night. I knew that i was a visitor here, and that i had to clean my things up.

11999 April 03

My mother was lying in the bed. She was very sick. I felt upset and tried to take care of her. There was a party in the other room, however. I thought that i should not let the noise disturb her. I got up from the side of the bed and walked to the west, out of the small bedroom and into the main part of the house. The party seemed loud and there were paper plates and other junk all over the tables. The room seemed dark and there was music playing. I felt tense as i walked to the large round table in the center of the room. I thought that my mother needed something to drink. I knew that there was a lot of alcohol at the party, but i had to find something that would be good for my mother. There were many $G4 at the party. I was upset and wanted the party to be over. I then thought i could get some orange juice from the table. I walked to the southwest side of the round table. There was a large round centerpiece in the table which was very tall. It had food and decorations scattered all around it. The table was covered with chips and other things that had been ravished during the party. I wanted the people to go away. I searched for a clean plastic cup in the mess. I felt frustrated and annoyed at the people from the party. I finally found a clean cup and picked up the glass pitcher of orange juice. The picture was bulb-shaped and full of juice. I then noticed that the liquid was rather clear at the top. I would have to stir it. I poured some of the orange juice in the glass, thinking that i would pour it back into the picture to stir it up. As the orange juice poured into the glass, it turned a dark orange on the bottom. It was going bad. I realized that it had been ruined by someone in the party. I felt very upset. $A143 then walked up to me and started asking me questions. He tried to joke with me, but i was too angry to talk to him. He was one of the people causing all of the problems. I got frustrated and threw a glass of orange juice on his face. In anger, i picked up several pieces of food from the table and threw them at him as well. I then stormed away, slightly afraid that he would retaliate. I passed through the crowd and walked into the next room. I did not look back to see what $A143’s reaction was. I came into the bedroom of my grandfather’s house. I was upset and did not want to talk to anyone else.

11999 April 05

I was in the open room of the house. There did not seem to be any walls to the room. I sat in the chair talking to $F10. We seemed to be in Texas. The room seemed to be our bedroom, and we both had some work to do. I knew that i had to write a paper. I felt very comfortable here. The ceiling of the room seemed to be two stories above us, and the room seemed very modern in design. I walked across the room from west to east. There was a table against the north wall with a long sword on it. $F10 picked up the sword by the handle, which had been facing him as he stood to the east of the table. There were many events happening, but i could not focus on all of them. I was then sitting in the chair, facing north. There was a woman in the chair in front of me and to my left. I spoke quietly to her. I felt very comforted with her. I reached out to touch the right side of her face as we spoke. She seemed like a close friend of mine, and my attraction to her was entirely emotional. I wondered why we could not be together more often. I thought that i loved $F10 as well, and thought that he could be in the chair in front of me. I wanted to be with him. I then realized that we had to continue what we were doing. $F10 stood up from the chair and walked back to the northeast corner of the room, where he was working on his paper. I knew that i had one to write as well. I turned to the south. My computer was in the southeast corner of the room. There was a large fish tank in the center of the south wall. I looked at it for a moment, noticing the large fish in it. They seemed like exotic fish. I then continued on to my desk. I knew that i had to write my paper before the next morning. It already seemed as though the sun were coming up, however. I felt very good, and did not want to write my paper. I knew that i could easily finish it. I then thought that i was always writing my paper at the last moment. I would think about it for a long period of time and then write it all at once. I then noticed the large number of other people in the room. They were headed outside. There was something wrong. I realized that there was a storm coming. We would have to hide in the basement. I knew that there was a tornado coming. I pictured the entrance to the basement. It was a small shelter in the center of the building. I could see the windows on the sides of the small room. I then thought that there could be no windows on the side of the room. They were small tile windows near the ceiling of the room, but i knew that they would be dangerous in a tornado cellar. The room would have to be sealed from the wind. I pictured several different doors to the room. All of then were made of heavy metal. I thought that the locking mechanism would have to be such that it could not be pulled away in a storm. I then saw the family run to the center of their house as the storm was coming. They could see the funnel cloud out the front window of the building. They ran into the small hole in the center of the floor. I thought that they did not have basements in houses down south, but they did have small storm cellars in the center of each house. It was good to have one in your house so that you could hide without having the neighbours think that you were running to the shelter during every siren. I looked down at the wooden floor of the house to see the square cement frame around the metal door to the storm cellar. I ran down the stares of the cellar and ran to the back wall of the small cement room. There were other people running into the cellar with me. The cellar was somewhat cubical, with a hall leading to the east towards the stairs. The metal door to the stairs had been sealed, but i knew that a large tornado would produce a good deal of wind as it sucked the air out of the cellar. There was a large rust-brown metal bar that ran around the walls of the room. It was about waist level. I told the people to wrap their arms around the bar and grab their wrists to keep themselves from getting pulled into the funnel cloud. I then noticed that the woman to my left was only holding onto the bar with her right hand. Her left arm was extended into the center of the room, as if she were trying to grab something. She was $A213. There was already a strong wind in the room, and i was worried that she might get sucked into the storm. She was wearing a loose grey dress with a light blue section on the front. All of the other people in the room were gathered around the wall with their arms locked around the metal bar. Then a small group of people entered the cellar from down the short hall to the north. $A190 was in the front of the group. I realized that $A213 was worried about him. I hoped that they closed the door tightly. The wind suddenly picked up. I knew that the storm was passing over our heads. I thought that the house above us would be destroyed. The wind then stopped. I walked to the north, down the short corridor towards the door. There were large windows on both sides of the corridor which looked out into the small plaza. There was rain water running down the panes of the windows, but the sky outside seemed to be clearing. I thought that the windows should not be here. They would have been dangerous in a tornado. I thought that i had decided that there would be no windows in the cellar. I was disappointed that i had changed my mind. I would have to rethink the cellar, which would change the design of the actual building. I ran outside and into the plaza. The other person to my left pointed out that the elementary school was unharmed. I looked up at the tall brown building in front of me to see that he was correct. I felt somewhat disappointed that the tornado did not do any real damage. I wondered where the storm had gone. I walked into the plaza and looked to the west, around the building under which i had been hiding. I could see the large funnel cloud around the corner of the building. It was dark and tall. I was disappointed that it was only a level four storm. I had hoped that it would be a level five. I checked to make sure that it was not coming towards, but moving away. The emergency was over, and i felt as though i had missed out on something.

11999 April 06

I looked over the large map as the other person talked to me. I mentioned that i knew about the geography. I thought that the water flowed from the small lake into the Black Sea. I looked at the area where the Black Sea flowed into the larger area. I then realized that there was a water fall in the middle of the larger sea. I thought that it was strange to have a water fall in the middle such a large body of water, but i could see the topographic lines running from northwest to southeast on the map. The line that marked the falls was curved slightly. I thought that it was possible for an ocean to have a water fall. The water must be relatively shallow. There seemed to be several areas of falls as the ocean ran to the southeast. I then noticed a spot to the east which was circular, and called Pie Falls. I thought that it must be a mesa under the water. I backed away from the wall. I was in the school. I seemed to work here, but there was something going on that was not good. I thought that i had said something that i should not have. The administrators did not know who let out their secret, however. I was driving down the road, thinking that i should get away from the school. There was a woman in the passenger’s seat of the car. The roads seemed snowy and there was someone following me. I tried to hurry away before the car behind me could catch me. I was worried that the car would skid on the snowy road. I was not quite sure where i was traveling. It seemed dark out, but i could see easily. I rounded the corner to the left when i noticed the road which went off to the right. I thought that the road to the right was a shortcut into the main hall of the school, but i did not take it. It was covered with snow and did not seem safe. As i rounded the corner to the left, i spoke to my mother, who was in the passenger’s seat. She told me where the other road came out. I came to an intersection where i would be turning right to get back to the school. My car skidded on the road, however, and the right front tire skidded off of the road. There was no shoulder, and the tire rolled into the mud. I thought that we might have trouble getting out of the mud. I looked to the left at the intersection to make sure that nothing was coming before i tried to drive out of the mud. The car skidded to the right so that both tires were off of the road. It did not get stuck, however. We pulled out onto the main road and continued. I thought that i had done something in my job for the school which should not have been done. I had given some information out to someone, but the information was a school secret. I felt uncomfortable at the school and thought that i should leave. I was driving in my car down the road towards the school. I had been on this road before. I knew that there was a short cut to the school coming up as the road turned to the right. I had just driven this road earlier, but i was not being followed by another car. My mother was in the car with me. I thought that i should take the shortcut back to the school, but decided that i should not risk the snow. I rounded the corner to the right and came to the intersection where i had gotten stuck earlier. I decided not to stop this time. I looked to the right to see that there was a car coming, but that it was too far away for me to get in it’s way. I drove onto the other road and started back into the main hall of the school. The car i was in was having trouble, though. I was pushing the car in front of me. It was a large cylindrical object which rolled unevenly over the wet gravel driveway. There was a car to the right as my father rolled the cart under the overhang of the shed. He wanted to make repairs on it. I thought hat he was not doing it correctly and tried to adjust the position of the cart. The cart seemed like a large black barrel on a hand cart. I tipped back the cart and rolled it out from under the edge of the shed. There was something i wanted to fix on it, but i did not have the correct equipment. My father told me that i should get something. I wandered into the office, looking for a pencil to write with. I knew that we would have to make marks on the side of the cart. I thought that i should take a pencil from my office. I felt uncomfortable here, however, as i had done something that the others did not approve of. I could not find the correct kind of pencil as i looked over the tops of the file cabinets. I walked into the room where the women were sitting around a large table. They seemed to be on their lunch break, playing some kind of game. I thought that i might be able to use a pen if i could find a good one. I was worried about the consistency of the line drawn, thought. I felt uneasy as others started to walk through the room. I realized that $A20 had come into the room. I did not want him to think that i was taking supplies from the office. I tried not to pay attention to him, but kept searching over the surfaces of the file cabinets and shelves. I picked up a ball-point pen and looked at it. $A190 walked over to me and asked whether i was taking pencils from the office. I tried to act as thought nothing was wrong, but i felt uncomfortable in the office. I decided that i should leave and walked to the east, out into the main hall. I was floating over the carpeting that covered the floor. There was a stairwell in front of me, but i kept floating out over it. I was not worried about falling. I thought that i could control myself in the air. $A20 was standing to the right, overseeing the work that was being done in the hall. There were several people on their hands and knees painting the railings of the stairs. I rotated my body in the air so that i would start to descend down the stairwell faster. I was worried that i would move too fast, however, as i fell towards the next level. I grabbed onto the edge of the ceiling as i came towards the floor. It helped slow my fall. I then moved forward, to the west, floating down the stairs to the lower level. There was a woman painting the white railings under me. She had spilled a little paint on the stairs. I tried not to hit her as i floated over her. I thought that she probably had the pain on her shoes. I had to get back to the black cart that i was repairing. It would help me escape from this place.

11999 April 07

I was running with $G4. We were just finishing a run. There were several alumni from $G3 with us as we ran down the long dark road towards the finish line. I watched myself run towards me. There were a few $G4 running with me as we turned to our right and headed into the finish area. We were greeted by several other people who had already finished. One of the people mentioned that i had been running with some of the alumni from $G3. I knew that there were several alumni on the run but i did not know that i had been running with them. Then i remembered that $A214 had finished just behind me. The person thought that i had been running with him. I told the person that i had not. The room that we were in seemed dark, and i stood near the back end. We were doing something that had to do with the alumni weekend. I then started talking to the person. It seemed as though we were planning something. The alumni weekend was over, but it was the second time that we had had the evening. I suddenly remembered that the first time was different. I spoke to the person on the ladder as we cleaned up the room. Everyone was constructing something in the room. There was a piece of clear plastic sheeting handing over one of the doorways. We had closed off the kitchen. $A55 seemed confused as i talked to the other person about the first weekend. I remembered that we had refinished the kitchen in the first weekend, but had not done so in the second weekend. I mentioned that i remembered about the new kitchen being reopened after it had been finished. I remembered that someone had cooked something in the toaster oven and then dropped in on the new carpet, creating a black stain. The other person remembered it as well and said that $A215 had dropped it. I remembered that they all had been drinking that weekend. It seemed strange that the other weekend happened earlier, but that none of the things that were done had been done were still done. I mentioned that we had a run on the first weekend that we did not have on the second. The kitchen was also not refinished yet because it had not been done on the second weekend. I felt cheerful, though, as though the second weekend had been more fun. Some of the others who were listening to us seemed confused. I told the person that i had run with $A121 on the first weekend. I thought that i was always thinking about her. I then thought it was strange that the two weekends seemed to be parallel. I could not figure out how both could have happened.

11999 April 08

I was in the basement of the building moving boxes from one end to the other. The basement was somewhat dark and damp. I had to move the cardboard boxes from the west room of the basement into the next room over to the east. I picked up two small cardboard boxes which were stacked on top of each other. As i started to turn with them i realized that the snakes inside of the box were agitated. I felt one of them strike at the side of the box. I thought that they could sense the heat from my hands and knew where to attack. I was weary of the snakes and hoped that none of them were able to get out of the boxes. I placed the box down on the pile to the east and went back to get another. I was uneasy carrying the snakes because i knew that they were poisonous snakes. I thought that they were rattlesnakes. I picked up the wide flat box and turned to head to the east room. I spoke to the other person with me, who was just coming back from that room. I then realized that the vibration of my voice was traveling down my arm and into the box. The snake was using the vibration to locate my hand. I could feel the snake’s fangs pierce the bottom of the box and prick my finger. I quickly moved my hand to the side of the box and decided that i should not talk while carrying the snakes. I placed the box down in the room to the east. I then wondered why the snake did not penetrate my hand. I thought that the fangs must only have come through the box a little way. I hoped that i did not get any venom in my hand. I thought about the snake bite, though, and realized that my hand did not hurt. I decided that i was safe, but i still wondered why the snake was not able to penetrate my skin. I walked back into the western room and picked up a dark grey fabric bag. The snake inside thrashed around. I made sure not to place my hands near the sides of the bag.

I drove down the road towards me parents’ house. I was in my new car, which was a bright light green. I pulled into the drive way and was then standing in front of the house talking to my mother. We had to get someplace. I thought that it was quite a bit later. I walked away from the house, towards the pull off on the side of the driveway where the cars were parked. I noticed that my new car was not there. I then looked up the driveway to see the green car parked behind several other cars. I realized that my parents had parked it in. I told my mother that my car was parked in and that i would have to take one of the others. She stood on the back porch of the house as she replied. I walked over to the large pink pick-up truck which was on the side of the drive way. I was weary of driving such a large truck. I then walked away from the house and across the yard. There seemed to be a carnival going on in the field by the road. I walked through the tents and kiosks. I seemed confused and unable to focus. I wondered about my car.

11999 April 10

I walked through the crowd of people in the open room. Everyone seemed to be well dressed, as if this were some type of fancy party. I was talking to $Z, who was walking with me through the crowd. I remembered that i had run into someone who had been famous. I spoke to the woman as we walked through the crowd. She was Dale Bozzio. I had met her in the crowd, and was now talking to her as we walked. I remembered that she had several albums that i liked. I thought that she looked very attractive as we walked through the crowd. I mentioned this to $Z. Dale was wearing a black leather dress with a black jacket over it. Her hair seemed very blonde and was combed out to the sides in a mid-eighties style. We approached the edge of the room, where her brother was standing with the rest of the band. There was a set of a few steps which led up to the door in the wall. Dale then said something which i thought sounded interesting. It almost rhymed. I thought that it would make a good basis for a song. I told her that what she said would make a good song. She paused in the middle of the stairs and turned to look at me, her expression telling me that she thought it was a silly idea. Her brother looked at me in the same manner as he stood to the right of the door. I realized that the band had not done very well since the late eighties. I realized that any attempt they made to create a new record might be perceived as a desperate attempt. I knew that their last record was a flop. I followed them out of the room. I felt strange to be with them. It seemed natural that i should be with famous people, but i did not think that i would ever befriend someone like Dale. We seemed to have a strange relationship. I started down the hall which ran down the right side of the stairs, which descended from the upper level. I then turned right and walked into the large room. I was momentarily distracted by the other musicians in the room. There was a concert going on in the large auditorium. I had walked into the left side of the upper balcony. The chairs in the theatre were red, and the crowd was dancing to the music. The people on stage were austral and were playing drums of all sorts. I liked the music and thought that i should do some similar to it. Someone then said that the band was Dave Matthews. I knew that Dave Matthews was not with the band, however. They were performing the show without him. I turned to leave the building. The austral man was walking to my left, talking about the band. I felt uncomfortable near him because he was not talking to anyone specific. I thought that he might be mentally unstable. I turned to the right and started walking down the city street. There was a bus along the curb towards which the man started to walk. Other people started to look at him as he went on talking about the concert. Then there was an older man with a pot belly and short white hair. He was wearing a red wind breaker which was open in the front. He started talking to the man. They seemed to know each other. There was then a man in front of me. He started talking, but was having difficulty. He was heavy and had a sweaty, round face. His hair was missing on the top of his head, and he looked somewhat ugly. There was a word on the lower right side of the screen in front of him. It looked like “Bellusar”. I knew that it was a place that was in the news lately. The man tried to pronounce it, but had some difficulty. He was nervous and could not say the word properly. He tried again. I then noticed that the word seemed longer than it had previously.

11999 April 11

I thought about sliding down the rope. I imagined grabbing onto the handle which hung from the rope and sliding down the length of the rope. The rope was very tight and did not sag as it traveled down the slope. I watched someone move down the rope for a moment. The person did not seem to be moving that quickly. I had hoped that one could slide down the rope faster. I thought that the slope must not be steep enough. The man came from my right and passed to my left as i stood near the platform, above which the rope ran. I wondered whether there was some kind of control on the handle which could adjust the speed of the descent. I then saw the group of people at the top of the rope. They were after me. I watched as one of them passed. I seemed to be in a large auditorium. The wooden track was running down the center aisle. It seemed as thought he room was very narrow, but the seats seemed to extend wider than the walls. There were people in the seats who watched as the people slid past them on the wire. I realized that i had to hide. I was in a long narrow tunnel which descended into a hill. The wooden platform was in the center of the tunnel, supported by crossed wooden boards. I hid under the platform as the people slid down the wooden trough that was on top of the platform. I thought that they would keep descending into the tunnel and that i could sneak back up to escape. I started crawling under the platform towards the entrance at the top. I had to get away. I then woke up in the room. Something seemed strange. I realized that the people were after me. I stood up from he small dark grey bed and walked to the door, which was to the east of me. I then turned south in the outer office. There was a large window in front of me which reached from the floor to the ceiling and from wall to wall. I seemed to be in an office building, looking down from several floors up. The outside of the building was covered with glass which reflected a green hue.

11999 April 12

I walked down the hall of the first floor of the north wing of $P7. It seemed to have been a while since i had been here. I looked around at the rooms on either side of the hall. It seemed as though i had been talking to $A216 for a while. I remembered her and was glad to see her again. I turned around and started to walk back to the entrance hall in the center of the building. There were some teachers in the hall which i recognized. $A90 stood in the entrance to one of the rooms in the white hall as i walked past. I then came into the main hall. There were several tables set up around the front hall. They were covered with articles. I realized that there was some special event going on. I thought that it was some type of fair. I had my bicycle with me. I thought that i would have to lock it up somewhere. $A76 approached me. I said hello and asked him what i could do with my bicycle. I told him that i had used the lock on something down the hall, so i needed some other place to lock my bicycle. I thought that i might have to put it outside. He led me down the hall to the south. I walked down the corridor between the cubicles of my office. I wondered whether i was late for something. I was wearing a jacket and tie. It seemed as though i had to be somewhere. I placed my things down on my desk. $A166 was then with me. He told me of the meeting. He said that the others were waiting for me. I told him that i would be right with him. I started looking around my cubicle for something. There was a book which i had to get. It seemed as though i had spent quite a few minutes in the cubicle. I suddenly realized that i had to be at the meeting and started to get my things together. I wrapped my tie under my collar. I wondered why i had taken it off. I walked down the hall as i adjusted my suit and tie. $A166 was with me again. He had come back to get me as i had not shown up when i said i would. I walked into the room and stood before the desk. There were two people sitting on the other side of the desk from me. They asked me about my job. The told me that i might not be suited for my job. I thought that it was a strange thing to say, and wondered why they were telling me. They told me that i might be better off doing something else. I felt uncomfortable. I did not know why they were telling me that i did not belong in my job. I looked across the room and noticed that there was a stairwell on the left side of the room which led down. It was surrounded by potted plants. There was someone working in the stairwell. He had a long white tube in his hand, which looked like a fluorescent light bulb. He held it in his right hand, slightly above his shoulder. Then i noticed the woman sitting behind the desk to the right. She seemed like $A217, but she had teased black hair. She told me that i was late for my meeting and that i would not be able to defend myself. I would only have been able to talk if i had arrived on time. She said that those were the rules. I asked her something, but she seemed very hostile towards me. The two people behind the desk were also aggressive towards me. I did not understand why they kept telling me that i did not belong in my job. I tried to say something but the woman to the left said that i should have arrived on time. I asked her how i was supposed to know that i was to be in the meeting. I told her that i had not known about the meeting before today. She was not listening to me and kept insisting that i would not be able to speak. I asked her when i was to be informed of the meeting. She did not explain herself. I walked out of the office and down the hall. I felt upset. I walked around in the large room. It seemed somewhat dark in the room. I had the book in my hand still. I had brought it into the meeting. I wondered why they had wanted to see it. I thought that they might have been upset that i had shown them a humour magazine. I remembered that they had asked me to bring one of the books from my office. I thought that it was very honest of me to bring the humour magazine when someone else would have brought some technical book. I looked at the magazine. I knew that the cover was only of the humour magazine. I knew that the inside of the magazine was something that they would not approve of as much. I did not care what they thought of my personal life, though. I then walked into the side of the small room. There was a play being performed in the center of the room. It was a musical, and there were people standing in a row, their arms raised. They were all facing the east wall, to the side of the room as they sang. The music sounded very together. I had to get something from the room. I had placed my book down somewhere and had to retrieve it. There was a black oval table in the middle of the room, behind which some of the audience was sitting. The actors were singing in front of it. The audience was very small and the actors were very close to them. I noticed that one of the actors was possible attractive. I could not be sure, however. I watched him periodically to see what he looked like when he changed position, where i could see him better. He was wearing a tight blue shirt which had silver glitter on it. The actors then moved again. I made my way through the people on the back side of the room. There was another table near the back wall, on the south side of the room, behind which i tried to walk. I then saw the actors move again. I realized that they were walking around the tables as they sang. The show interacted with the audience. I squeezed past a woman who was sitting behind the table as i made my way to the east wall of the room. I walked north along the east wall, along the side of the stage. There was furniture stacked against the east wall of the room. I then noticed my small blue date book on the pile of furniture. I had left it in this room after my meeting, and it got pushed aside with the furniture. I reached into the pile, through the legs of what seemed to be a couch, and picked up my book. I then turned around. $A53 was talking to someone in the center of the room. There was a large wooden structure on the north wall in front of which he stood. It seemed as thought the play was over. He spoke to someone as i stood up again. He mentioned a modern rock ground and said that they had written a song by the name of “nade”. I knew the song that he was talking about and told him that it was called “naveed”. He turned to talk to me, saying that the word was actually a bad word in his language. He smiled as he spoke. I told him that i knew someone with that name. I said that his mother probably would not have called him something that was a swear word. I then added in a joking manner, “Then again, knowing her, she might have.” $A4 was standing to the south of us. He smiled with the joke. I looked at him and noticed that his skin seemed darker than normal.

I walked into my grandmother’s garage. It seemed late at night, and i had just come back from someplace. I walked through the room. Something seemed wrong. I thought that i should get something. I was in a large room on the second floor of $P55. I thought that i had woken up in the middle of the night. I had to get something from someplace, but i would have to sneak around. I did not want $A190 to find me taking things from this place. I knew that he was sleeping down stairs. I started across the room towards the stairs to the north. The stairs descended to the south. I thought that i should put some pants on. If i had pants, i could tell $A190 that i was going to the bathroom. I quietly ran to the front of the room and pulled on my jeans. I heard the rattling of change in both of the front pockets, and could feel it hitting my thighs. I thought that i would have to take it out of my pants because it would make too much noise. I then ran back to the top of the stairs. I was not sure where to look for the item. I thought that i should look in the desk downstairs. I then noticed that there was a light on downstairs. I turned to look to the north, through the open doorway into the small room. It was an office, and had a desk in it. I thought that i should check that desk as well. I reached into the room. I could hear a man talking to $A190 downstairs. The man was telling $A190 not to trust me. He expressed his concerns that i might do something bad. I tried to turn off the light to the small room, but could not do so quickly. $A190 then was at the bottom of the stairs. I told him that i was shutting off the light to the office and that i was going to the bathroom. He told me what the man had said and shook his head as if he thought that the man were being overly worried. He told me that he thought that man was bothering him with his concerns. I thought that i should check the desk downstairs before i leave.

11999 April 13

I moved swiftly down the railroad tracks with $Z. We seemed to be on bicycles. I was then aware that there was a train behind us. We were traveling on a bridge which was heading out of the city towards the south. I thought that the train would slowly accelerate, so we would have some time before it caught up to us. I was still a little worried that it might hit us from behind. I then saw the area ahead of us where the ground around the track widened. There seemed to be a smooth platform on either side of the track. It seemed blue. I watched as the two people on bicycles swerved from the track and moved out onto the platform. The man swerved to the right, and the woman to the left. The train passed between them. I seemed to be moving over the area observing them. The man spoke to the woman as the train passed between them. They both seemed to be on trains. They were hitching a ride. At first, the worn blue dumpster car that the man had jumped onto did not seem to be moving. I thought that it was a separate train on the track to the right. It then seemed to be moving, keeping pace with the train which had been running down the track. The woman was worried about the man because he was riding on the front of the metal car. They were trying to do something, but the man seemed to be taking more risks. I watched him as he hung from the left side of the car, which seemed to be at the front of the second train. The train on which the woman was riding seemed to be going at the same speed as the second train now. She told him not to hand from the front of the car. I then noticed that he was holding onto the car with his right hand as he leaned forward to look under the wheels. The woman was worried about him. She then mentioned something which seemed to deal with sabotaging the train. I was looking at the man from underneath the car. I seemed to be on the left side of the car and he was hanging from the right. He was at the beginning on a car somewhere in the middle of the train. He had a metal sign in his right hand as he looked under the car, handing with his head down right in front of one of the wheels. The woman was worried that he might fall under the wheels of the train. I thought that he might as well. I wondered whether the two people were trying to kill themselves. Then the man took the metal bar with his right hand and pressed it against the metal sign, which was wedged under the front of the wheel. He was going to stop the train. The pressure on the metal sign would act as a brake to slow the train. I was then standing on the platform near the stopped train. Other people were gathering. There was a paved driveway to the east of the small building. The train was on stopped on the track just to the west of the building. Other people started to gather to look at the site. I paced slowly, trying not to act suspicious. I did not want to be associate with the people who had stopped the train. I seemed to know some of the other people in the crowd. I said only a couple words to the people i know. Then my parents were at the site. We were looking at the new train. It had been refitted with special cars. I thought that the open platform car looked rather strange. It had objects on it which seemed like children’s toys. I was standing to the west of the train, looking down the length of the platform car, which seemed to had a row of playground toys running down the center of it. There seemed to be some smooth, oblong shaped on top of springs. There was also one which seemed to be a see-saw. They were grey with swirls of various colours around them. The others seemed skeptical of the new train as well. It then started moving. We were moving to the left of it. Several people commented on the new train. We knew that it could travel a little faster than the one on which we were riding. Then both of the trains rounded a corner. All of the sudden, the train we were on started to speed up. We were racing the second train. We caught up to its engine and started to pass it. I mentioned that the train we were on was showing off the fact that it could accelerate faster. I could hear the heavy diesel engine running as we passed the other train. I then realized that we were in heading down the road. I was in the front of the heavy old train as we left the tracks and headed down the pavement. There was some problem with the tracks, and we would have to take a detour. My mother was sitting to the left of me, driving the train. She was frightened and worried because she did not know how to drive such a large train. I told her not to worry. She moved the train into the right lane of traffic. I knew that we had to make a right turn, and i thought that the train would be better in the right lane because it would give us more room to turn. My mother seemed confused, however, and did not know what to do. She looked into the left lane and started to swerve back. I told her that the train was easy to drive. She only had to make sure that she did not go to fast around corners with the train because it was top-heavy. I then thought that i should not worry her with such ideas. I told her again to take it slow around corners as we started to make the turn to the left. The road went up hill from the intersection, and the train seemed to pause as it reached the short hill. My mother then started the train accelerating up the hill. I knew that the train was powerful enough that it could easily make it up the hill with all of the cars behind it. My mother then started to relax. She realized that there was not much to driving the train on a road. We were standing in the room. The event was over and my family was tired. We seemed to be in the living room of my grandmother’s house. My grandfather was with us, and he seemed confused. He said something which was disparaging. I felt bad for him, knowing that he was not mentally aware of his actions. I knew that everyone must be very tired. My grandmother seemed especially worn. I was afraid that she might collapse. She walked to the bedroom at the back of the house. My other old female relative was standing in the room with a black dress suit on. I watched as she collapsed into a chair. I thought my grandmother had been exhausted. I felt bad for the old woman and sat next to her. I knew that she was having difficulty.

11999 April 14

I was with my grandmother in some place, but i had to leave to get home. It seemed that i was on a road heading back to someplace, but there was a problem. I sneaked across the school yard with the others. There was a war going on. I watched as the three helicopters passed by us. I stayed still under the edge of the small patch of palm trees. The ground seemed sandy and tan. There was a low flat-roofed building to the east of me, over which the helicopters flew. They did not seem to notice us. I was glad and thought that we should simply remain still. I then noticed the red and white helicopter in the shy. It was on our side. It hovered between the others and me. The others then fired a missile at it. The small missile missed the red helicopter, but headed towards us. It passed over my head. I thought that i should move to avoid getting blown down my the explosion, but i was afraid that any movement might be noticed by the other helicopters. I ducked slightly as the red missile passed overhead. I winced as it exploded behind me. There did not seem to be much of a blast wave. I wondered why the red helicopter was hovering between us and the enemy helicopters. It placed us in the line of fire. We then started to move to the north. I realized that we were with the enemy troops. We had to remain quiet. Then the small girl shouted out to the leader of the other army. She told them where we were going. The troops seemed surprised. I wondered what she was trying to do. She then stated that she was a leader of the secret forces and that she was taking over the legion that we were walking with. I hoped that the soldiers believed her. She told them that they were walking through the tunnel to plant the explosives. The troops did not seem to understand what was going on. She then mentioned that the packages which were being carried on the mules were filled with explosives. She made it seem as thought the explosives were going to be used against the other troops. I turned to walk down the stairs, which were in the west side of the wall. They turned to head back to the east once they reached the lower level. The commander of the enemy troops was following me. I was nervous near him. He did not know that i was not part of his troops. He spoke to me as we started into the area on the east end of the lower hall, which seemed to be a restaurant. We paused before heading into the crowd. He did not want to make it seem as though we had come together. I stopped just outside of the small area. There was a window to my left which looked into the main restaurant area. I could see troops sitting at round tables, chatting and eating. In front of me and to my right there were more tables outside of the building. The commander was led through the tables on the right. I waited for a moment before entering. The waitress then came over to me and tried to escort me to a table. I thought that should follow her and pretend that she did not want to sit me near the commander. I did not want to be near him, and pretended that i had no control over where the waitress sent me. I had to make it look as though i did not know that he was there. I then noticed $A218 at a table near the back of the restaurant. I was being led in his direction. I then noticed that $A219 was sitting with him. I thought that i should sit with them. I walked over to their table and started to sit down, but $A218 stood up to leave. I looked under the table as i sat down, noticing that $A219 had nicely defined legs. I was interested in meeting him. The others started to sit down with me, but i noticed that $A219 also left. I hoped that none of the people with me mentioned my name, as some of them were familiar with me. The woman across the table gave me an expression telling me that she would be careful with the person to her right. Then one of the commanders walked over to the table. I introduced myself with my real name. He did not seem to notice.. I then called myself “Roger”. I made it seem as if we were using fake names at the table. Everyone at the table introduced themselves to him as well. I felt slightly uncomfortable in the restaurant.

11999 April 15

I was riding on the bus. It seemed as though the bus was crowded. I was sitting in the front seat on the right-hand side of the bus. We were traveling north up a road across the campus. There were modern buildings on both sides of the road. We passed the brick and cinder block building, which seemed to be a dining hall. I looked out the window and noticed that the view was black and white. I realized that i had switched on the camera which looked around the campus. I thought that the view was interesting and looked closely out the round window. I could see buildings below me. I then realized that the view on the screen was moving. I realized that the camera of campus must be attached to a bus which was driving down the campus road. I tipped the window forward and back, discovering that i could control the angle of the camera. I could see people walking on the campus on the screen. I then sat back from the window and tried to turn the camera off. I touched the area at the top of the screen, but the camera would not turn off. The bus i was on then started to slow down. I thought that we should be on the north end of the campus by now, which is where i wanted to get off. I was not sure whether i was in the correct area, though, as i could not look out the window to see here we were. I did not want to miss my stop, so i stood up, trying to look out the window. I then heard a woman from a few rows behind me ask where we were. She could not see past one of the screens as well. I was then outside of the bus, standing near a woman. I realized that i was in the wrong place. I seemed to be in the middle of the country. I was disappointed that i had gotten off in the middle of nowhere. I had to get back to the college. I asked the woman when the next bus would by. I noticed the small bus passing us on the road as i asked. She motioned the small bus, saying that it was the next bus. I was annoyed, and asked her when the next bus after that would be. She did not answer.

11999 April 16

I walked to the east, over the cement path which led across $P73. It seemed that i had just come back from someplace. It seemed rainy outside. I thought about the thing which had to be done. Then i thought about the woman. I remembered that she was sick. I pictured a piece of paper in front of me. It was a large chart rendered with blue ink. There was a single horizontal bar in the center of the page which was mostly filled from the left with blue ink. The box was surrounded with feather-like flourishes, as if it were an old paper. I knew that the bar chart represented the woman’s temperature. She had a very high fever. Someone mentioned the exact temperature of her fever. I thought that she was very sick and should not be participating in the event. I continued walking with the others from $G4. We were just finishing a run. $A30 was jogging to my right. He mentioned that there would be beer at the end of the run. The others joked about it and $A30 patted a label on my back. I knew that the label had something to do with the beer. I thought that i should take it off. I was not interested in participating in the celebration with everyone else.

11999 April 17

I walked up the stairs at the back side of the building. The play was still going on down stairs. I was in a large room which seemed like a bar. On the east wall was a huge open fire place made of smooth red plaster. I knew that it was fake. It was part of the play, and i knew that it would descend into the floor when it was required in the play below. I wondered what was left behind when the fire place dropped. I remembered it happening once before, but i did not remember what the wall looked like after it was gone. I thought that it did not have a hole left in the place of the fire place, but i could not remember what was there. I was with my father in the bar. We were on vacation. It seemed as though we had been in this place for quite some time. I wanted to move on. I knew that we had to drive someplace before too long. I pictures a map in my head. It was a road traveling east. We were supposed to drive east until we met up with the main high way. Then we were going to travel north until we got to Cheyenne. We were traveling in the western United States. I walked out of the small building, which seemed to be a tourist tavern. It seemed rather rustic. The ground was dry and ashen tan. It was covered with broken sandstone rocks and dry tangled brush. The old man was following me from the bar. He seemed like a relative of mine, but i knew that he was a famous movie star. He had flown out to say hello to us on a whim. I thought that he must be wealthy to make the jet trip on such a whim. I felt uncomfortable around him and did not want to be near him. I spoke to him briefly. He said that he would have to get back to the Catskills. There was some event happening that he was supposed to be at. My father came out of the building and stood with us for a while. The man then left. There were some tourists to the west of us walking down the side of the old cabin. They seemed to he heading down the trail which led down into the large canyon. We seemed to be in the Western United States. The air was bright and dry. I thought that we wanted to travel south towards the large canyon. I wanted to see the scenery. I was in the car with my mother and father. I was riding in the back seat. We drove down the paved road to the east. I thought that the large canyon must be to the south of us. The area around us was forested, however. The sun light fell brightly through the green leaves of the tall trees. The road ahead of us dropped into a slight dip as though it were crossing a stream. On the other side there was a hill that went up through the thin woods. I thought that it was strange that the woods would be so close to the dry desert climate of the canyon. I started to wonder whether there really was a canyon to our right. We then came to the top of the hill, where the road leveled out. The ground around us was flat and open. We were on the outskirts of a small town. There were green lawns around us. I then noticed the large mansion on top of the hill to our right. I thought that it must have a view out over the canyon. The building was stone with white wood trimming. It had white columns on the front and seemed like an old university. There was a dark statue in front of the building. The statue was of a man, who reminded me of Benjamin Franklin. I was amazed by the large building. It seemed to have a nobility to it. We then came into the center of the small town. I suddenly wondered where $X3 was. He had been with us at the small cabin where the pay was. I asked my parents what happened to the dog. My mother said that we must have left him tied up outside of the tourist area. We would have to go back to get him. I felt worried. My father a corner to the left. The road went down hill slightly. He then turned to the left again into the blacktop driveway in front of the red brick building. He was going to turn around. I noticed the golden retriever running in front of the car from the left. I warned my father not to hit it. My father was cautious and slowed the car as the dog crossed in front of it.

11999 April 20

I was trying to record something on the tape. I knew that it was the second song on the tape, but i was unsure how it was to be processed. I could see the computer screen with the selection menu on it. I looked over the list. I had selected the first choice the last time that i had recorded the song, but i thought that the second made it sound better. There was a reason why i was recording.

11999 April 23

I looked into the mirror on the wall of the room. There was a dark spot on my skin on the left side of my lower back. I looked around at it and noticed that it was a large moth. I remembered that it had broken the skin and gotten stuck there. I thought that the wound must have healed over the moth, and not the moth was integrated into my skin. I did not like the way it looked and tried to remove the moth. I twisted around and tried to pick at the moth, but i could not get it off of my skin. I was annoyed that it had left such a large mark. I was worried that it might cause other problems with my skin. There were other people in the room with me. They were wandering around, looking at things in the mirror as well. It seemed as though i was at $P19. I had to get going. I got in the car in the driveway of $P19. I released the emergency brakes and the car started to roll. I put my foot on the brakes, but the car started to skid. I was worried that i would not be able to stop. I skidded toward the road. I then noticed that $A221 was in front of me. The car ran into him. The person who was standing to the right said that $A221 was under the car. I looked down and could see him laying under the front end of the car. He had not bee run over, but was being dragged by the car. I was worried about him and hoped that he would not be hurt. The car then started to spin and continue down the road. I realized that there was a hill to the east and that the car would pick up speed as it went down it. $A221 was left behind and the car spun around him and started down the hill. I hoped that he was all right, but i did not know whether i could stop the car to go check on him. I thought that i would have to wait until the car came to a stop before i could turn around and head back. I let he cad slide down the hill and across the open plain. I came to the place where there were fields on both sides of the road. There seemed to be a small grove of trees ahead. I pulled the car off to the left side of the road and started to turn around. I felt bad that i had not gone back to check on $A221 earlier. As i turned around, i noticed several cars passing me on the road. I then looked to the south and saw the large yellow building which was set back from the road. It seemed to be a commercial building, but i was unfamiliar with it. It had a long driveway which seed to cut across the manicured lawn. I wondered what it was as i started to accelerate towards the west. I was heading back to the house to see if $A221 was all right.

11999 April 24

I was in the front yard of my parents’ house. $K2 was with me. He asked me where we buy gas around here. I told him that the gas station was near the main market in the center of town. He was then in the front seat of my red car. It was a Volkswagen Beetle. We started driving down the road. I wondered whether his parents would mind that he was leaving so abruptly. I knew that he was going to the gas station. I told him about the car as he drove up the hill away from the house. I was sitting behind the back seat of the car. I thought that i should move forward, but then thought that it might be dangerous while the car was in motion. I then realized that there was a space on the right side of the passenger’s seat. I could squeeze through. I was worried about $K2 driving the car. I rolled over the back seat and squeezed into the front seat. I talked about how this was one of the original Beetles. $K2 was interested that it was not one of the modern cars. I told him that it did not have a lot of power because of the small air-cooled engine. I then thought that the car might heat up going up the long hill away from the house. I asked $K2 not to drive it too fast up the hill, but i was afraid that he already had. I then looked in front of me. The dash board was not how i remembered it. I realized that there were small food compartments on the front wall of the passenger’s section. I then noticed that the normal dash had been opened up like a door, swinging to the left. I bent over to look into the area. I noticed the green pencils on the floor. I remembered that, when i was buying the car, there were many green pencils in the tray which was on the floor in front of the passenger’s seat. I then realized that they had been missing. I thought that the old man who sold me the car must have cleaned them up and placed them inside the front dash. I then looked up, realizing that we had come to the end of the road. $K2 turned to the car to the right to head to the market. We then noticed that there was a large tractor trailer pulled of on the right side of the road. There were orange cones on the road around the back end of the trailer, and there were several police officers standing on the road near the truck. I thought that it might be an accident, but i did not see any damage to any cars. I then thought that the police might simply be stopping people. I hoped that $K2 had his license with him./ I felt my left front pocket and realized that i did not have my wallet with my. I could not drive my car is $K2 did not have his license. I then realized that i also did not have the registration for the car with me.

11999 April 25

I looked through the mailbox near my house. The room that i was in seemed bright white, and the mailboxes were on the south wall. They seemed to be nothing more than wooden slots on the surface of a desk. I opened the mailbox on the far left. It was full of mail. It was from the neighbour, who had not picked up his mail in a very long time. I looked at the things that were packed into his box and noticed that there was a small 45 record in front of the box. It was in a yellow sleeve and seemed to be a promotional disc. I thought that i should take it. I knew that he would not be around to pick it up. I then started to look through the mail in my box, which was on the right side of the desk. There was a large manila envelope which contained a CD. I had received a promotional disc as well. I was excited to see it. I thought that i could carry the small 45 with the bulk of my mail. I then turned around and headed back across the apartment. It seemed very large, and was all white. I walked to the east, around the partitioning wall and turned south into the kitchen. It seemed strange to me that i had such a large apartment. As i walked into the kitchen, i noticed that the brown wooden table which was normally against the west wall was missing. I wondered what had happened to it. I then realized that someone had been in my apartment. I felt uncomfortable for a moment. I looked around. The kitchen seemed L-shaped, with the long end on the south side, stretching to the east. I looked down the long end of the kitchen and noticed that there was a puddle of an orange liquid on the floor. I thought that someone must have spilled something. I then noticed that the liquid formed a trail which led down to the basement door, which was on the east end of the north wall. I thought that the land lords had come into the apartment to fix something. I did not like them coming in whenever they wanted. I walked over to the large puddle of yellowish orange liquid. I then turned around and started back into the other section of the kitchen. I noticed that there was a puddle there as well. I thought that they had dragged something through the kitchen. I thought that they might have moved the table so that they could drag something into the basement. I thought about placing a rag on the floor the rag was soiled with the liquid. I tried to arrange it on the floor. I then thought that it would be evidence. I had gotten my finger prints all over the cloth. I thought that i could tell the police that i had picked it up to see what it was. That would explain why it was covered with my fingerprints. I then turned and walked out of the kitchen to the north. I was in a large open room. My land lord was with there. He was $A220. He said something about his daughter. She was sick somewhere. He then mentioned that his son had left. I felt as though he wanted me to take his son’s place. I felt uncomfortable with the idea. I thought about his son. I then told him about the trail of liquid in the kitchen. He seemed confused. I told him that i had found the rag first and then the liquid. I had to keep maintain my story about finding the cloth first.

11999 April 26

I drove down the road to the west. I seemed to be on a main road leaving $P6. There was a shop on the right side of the road which i had to get to. I was going to meet my parents there. I had to pick up my car from the mechanics. I thought that i would get it on my way out of town. I was in the passenger’s seat of the car as my father drove into the parking lot of the store. It seemed somewhat dark out. I knew that my mother would be along any minute. She had driven the motorcycle in. My father drove around the cars in the center of the lot counterclockwise and stopped in front of the building. I looked around the lot. I thought that it was early in the morning. I wondered how my mother was doing on the motorcycle. I did not think that she liked driving motorcycles. I then tried to think about how i was going to drive home. I did not want to take the motorcycle all the way home on the highway. I was not fond of driving it. I then thought that i really did not need to drive it home because i had my own car. I then realized that if i took my own car the motorcycle would have to be left at the shop. I asked my father whether he really wanted his motorcycle left at the shop. We both wondered what was keeping my mother. My father started to drive out of the lot. I then noticed a large car on the other side of the lot from us. It was facing the road. An arm extended from the driver’s window and pointed what looked like an uzi out the window. I wondered whether it was a real gun, or whether it was a fake. I remembered that i had a water pistol that looked like an uzi. I told my father that all toy guns now had to look like toys because some child in Chicago got shot by police. My father drove out of the parking lot and started east, back down the road. I wondered whether my mother had gotten in an accident. As we started down the road. I could see my mother in the other lane, driving the Harley motorcycle. We slowed and would turn around to meet her in the lot.

11999 April 28

I walked into the room. I was getting dressed. $F15 spoke to me as i looked for my shoes. We had just come from somewhere and were getting ready to leave. I had to put my sneakers on. They were black canvas basketball sneakers. The other person in the room commented that $F15 made a good basketball player. I looked at $F15 as he stood in front of me, facing the other person. He was wearing gym shorts. He had strong legs, which i thought would help him jump higher. I continued to tie me black shoes. I then noticed that i was wearing white sweat socks under the shoes. I thought that it would look strange. I stood up, noticing that i was also wearing a dark blue pair of denims. I wondered whether the white socks would be too awkward. I then walked around the room. I was aware that i was wearing a blue and purple shirt. It was a nice shirt, and i thought that i was dressed up. I passed my grandmother as i walked down the hall, away from the room. I asked her about the socks. I knew that we were on our way to someplace fancy. She said that they did look kind of strange. I said that i did not know what else to wear. I should have put on a black pair of socks. I walked past $K1 as i continued down the hall. There was a pile of shoes near the front door of the house. I looked over them to see if there was anything else that i could wear. I did not know what would look good. I then spotted a pair of blue boat shoes. I asked my grandmother whether they would be all right. She thought that they would be better than the black sneakers that i was wearing. I grabbed the pair of leather shoes and started to take off one of my sneakers. My father was in the room. My family was getting ready to leave, and i had to hurry. I removed my right sneaker and the sock and put on the boat shoe. I thought that it was simply a slip-on shoe, but looked down and noticed that it had laces. I tried to tie the right shoe quickly. I was then in the back seat of the car. We were getting ready to pull out of the garage. We were in a hurry to get to the place. I told my father to hold on a minute because i had to get the other shoe. I opened the back door on the driver’s side of the car to get my shoe. I knew that the shoe was in a pile on the side wall of the garage just below the car. I could not open the door all the way because the car was too close to the wall. I tried to reach down through the crack of the door, but could not reach the shoe. I then decided that if i closed the door and rolled down the window it would be easier to get the shoe. I could see the silver controls of the electronic window of the large car. I mentioned rolling down the window when my father started to drive the car out of the driveway. I told him that i needed to get my shoe. I then asked whether i could go into the restaurant barefoot. My grandmother told me that i could not. I told them that i would need my other shoe. I was still wearing my old shoe, but i did not want to have two different shoes on. My mother then asked my father where he was driving. He was somewhat flustered and told her that he was going to drive around and return to the garage. I thought that he would simply pull around to the front of the house and then return to the driveway, but he backed the car out and then started across the city. It seemed as though we were heading to the place. The buildings in the city were tall, and the streets were narrow. I was worried that we would not be able to get my other shoe. As we moved through the mall, i pulled off my other black shoe. I then looked at my foot to notice that the large black sticker that had been on the sole of my foot was still there. I thought that it had been there for a long time. It had something to do with basket ball and $F15. I pealed it off. It left a slight black residue. I was barefoot and needed to get some shoes on before i could go into the restaurant. My family was sitting around in the area outside of the small ice cream shop. I was worried that i would not be able to go back for my shoes.

11999 April 29

I was in the upstairs of my grandparents’ house on $P12. My father’s mother was in the bed. She was very sick, and i knew that she would die if she was not taken care of. I was supposed to be watching her. It then seemed as though it were my grandfather and not my grandmother. I felt somewhat callus. I did not want to watch over her, and thought that it would be better if we let her die. I kept thinking that it was better to simply let her die. I then thought that it was my grandfather who had died. I wondered whether my family would blame me for letting him die. I felt uncomfortable as i wandered through the lower floor of the house. I thought that i should see what was left up in the master bedroom. I felt defensive and worried that my actions were selfish, but it seemed to make sense that my grandfather should have been allowed to die. I kept trying to think about what had happened, but i could not focus on it. I thought that it was good that he had finally died, though i would miss him.

11999 April 30

I was running with the group of people. We headed through a public area which seemed to be in the middle of a city. I was ahead of the others as i followed the yellow lines on the pavement. We seemed to run through a house, but i was then on the slope which led downhill under the structure. The structure seemed to be a parking garage. I started to slip as i moved down the slope. There were people watching me as i slid down. I felt uncomfortable and thought that i should act as though i knew where i was going. I felt insecure about running through the area, though. I made it to the flat surface at the bottom of the slope and continued to run forward. It seemed as though i were running through a narrow passage. I then came to the other side of the building and realized that i would have to turn left or right in front of the brick wall. I then noticed that the other $G4 were to my right. I had drifted from the trail. I did not want them to think that i did not know where i was going, so i kept on running, trying to turn to the right. I ran across the small grassy lot between the large structure and the next building. I could see the road ahead of me which ran along the side of the large brick building. It sloped upward as it headed to the main road, which ran to the right. I thought that i would run out of the grassy lot to the road and turn right to rejoin the others. I would tell them that i was following another trail. I then realized that there was a pile of garbage in front of me. I could not jump over it to get to the small side road. I turned to the right and started to head up the hill towards the main road but realized that most of the area around me was covered with rubbish. I looked down to see several plastic bags laying just to my left. I could not walk through them and wondered how i would get to the road. I did not want to go all the way back through the open building. I looked behind me, wondering how i had run through the first part of the field. There was someone behind me who had stopped in hesitation. We could not run through the filth. I did not know how to get to the road.

I walked into the room of the house. The room seemed to be in a large space ship. There was something wrong. We had gone to some area that we were not sure how to get back from. I looked at the large view screen on the east wall of the room. There seemed to be a red spiral galaxy outside. We had to get someplace, but we were we not able to at the moment. I then remembered that the woman had experience flying old fashioned airplanes. I walked close to the window, thinking that the woman would have to pilot the ship, because she was the only one who was familiar with piloting a ship through an atmosphere. I told the others in the room that the woman would be piloting the ship through the atmosphere. I seemed to be the captain. I knew that the others would be surprised by my statement. Chekov was sitting in the command chair just to my left as i started after the woman. He said, “No! Captain, Let me fly the ship.” I knew that he did not want to trust the woman. It was his way of showing honour. I told everyone in the room that the woman was the best person to fly the ship because of her experience with the older flying machines. I walked out of the room and down the hall of the building. The woman had walked into the back of the house. I knew that she was upset. I then turned around and walked out the front door of the house. I was following the woman, trying to convince her to fly the ship. She was unhappy, and did not want to listen. I turned around to look back into the house. I was standing on the cement steps which led down from the door of the house. I then noticed the puppies which were on the porch. There were several large stones on top of them. I told the girl that someone had killed the puppies. I knew that it was because that person did not want to take care of them. I was upset that the puppies had been killed. I bent over to look at them as the woman walked away. She seemed concerned with other things. The puppies were tan with black muzzles. I was upset that someone would have dropped a stone on them. I thought that the puppies would be crushed by the weight. I started to move the rock when i noticed that one of the puppies was still alive. I told the woman. I felt sad and distressed. I wondered who could have tried to kill the small dogs.