11995 December 01
$A205 came into the room and told me that i had a telephone call from $F14. I thought that it was strange, but i took it anyway. She was uneasy and wanted me to come to a wedding up in New England. I had to drive northeast to the top of the map to get to Rhode Island. It was a long trip, and i did not really want to go. I did not know what to tell her. I did not say that i would come. I went to look for the maps. $F14 was standing by the drive, which descended toward the lake. A red boat on a trailer was backed down into the water. The water was very calm, and the shore was sandy. $F14’s mother was there at the wedding. I could not really go. I had something to do, but i could not remember what. I rode back through the main street of the small town to my room. Then i remembered that i was supposed to go see $F24 that weekend. I called $F14 up and told her that i could not make it to Rhode Island because i had to visit $F24. She was unhappy.
11995 December 02
I woke up at camp. It was quite cold. We left to find shelter. We came to a house. We had to get in, but there was nobody home. We had to find shelter. I looked through the kitchen window of the house. I could see a wide tile floor, with very little decoration. The cupboards and counters were also very plain. Everything was white or light aqua, and it all looked like an early sixties style. I could see two bowls of dog food on the floor of the kitchen. $F12 and i walked across the kitchen floor. We had broken in. There did not seem to be a dog in the house. We went to the refrigerator to see if we could find some food. We were starving. The refrigerator was almost empty. There were quite a few cans on the lower shelves, but nothing good. $F12 ate some of the leftover ice cream. I searched around the kitchen for some other food. There were a couple of bags of cat food in one of the cupboards. $Z walked out of the kitchen and into the interior of the house. There was a cement hallway running toward the pantry. This is where all of the large supplies of food were kept. There was an access door on the left wall of the cement corridor, just before the corridor turned right, into the main freezer. It led back to the front of the house. I was worked that we might get caught in here. Then i saw a woman walking toward the house as i looked out the kitchen window. She would catch us in the house. She was wearing an old green flannel jacket with a matching hat. I ran down the corridor off of the kitchen to try to warn $F10. I found him at the corner of the back hall. He was doing pushups on the floor. I told him about the woman, but we were too late. She walked into the room just as we had started to go. She greeted us and did not seem to mind that we were in the house. Then she told us about the old man who had owned the house. She said that he had just died. She was so sorry. She thought that we were his friends. She told us about the funeral service and tried to console us. We walked out of the house and up to the top of the hill across the street. It was dark outside, and there was a group of people gathered at the top of the hill. They were there mourning. There was an old wide-spread tree at the top of the hill. All of the other people knew that we were friends with the old man. One of the girls there started talking to me. She was young and dressed in grunge style. She was interested in me. I was not interested in her, even though she was somewhat attractive. I hung out on the top of the hill with everybody else, waiting for something to happen.
I was looking through the magazine. It mentioned the word “Mexika”, which i had just heard previously on television. Then i saw pictures of $F24 in the magazine. I watched the television screen as he ran. He was running up a city street. The camera was low to the ground at the top of a hill watching him jog up. It was dark, and the streets were wet with rain. There were lights from the buildings shining on him, and there was steam rising from some place on the right. The man watching television with me commented that he was in good shape. I agreed. Next we watched as he started down hill.
11995 December 05
The herpetologists were meeting outside, in the entrance drive, by the tennis courts. There was a small stream to the right side of the drive. I was hanging out with them, even though i did not know what they were doing. They all lined up along a rope and started pulling. They were erecting a sign by the side of the drive. They started talking about their meeting, but the ground was rather disorganized. It was hard to get them organized. There was such a small attendance at their meeting. Then they started analyzing things in the water near the side of the drive. I thought of the white snakes i had seen by my apartment. I did not know any of the latin names of the snakes. I tried to think. I mentioned E. coli in the water that they were studying. I did not think that it was correct, though. Then the group started back to the building. They walked down the drive and turned right to cross the tennis court. I started to fly. I circled over the tennis court. $A14 was there with the group. He stopped at the edge of the courts as the rest continued on. He started to ask me about things.
I walked into the small room on the front of the building. It looked kind of like a dance studio, with a stand-up piano on the front wall. All four of The Beatles were seated at the piano bench. They were joking around and playing some songs on the piano. They were young, and they were all wearing their dark-grey uniforms. I started talking to them. We were joking around. They started asking me about aftershave. We were joking about it. Then they started playing. I watched John play piano. The others were bouncing around the room. Paul started slapping his bass. John then went over to the other bass, which was sitting near the piano. It was Paul’s other bass, and it was broken. John tried to tape the broken neck back together. Then they continued practicing. $G3 came up to the room next door. I walked in to see what they were up to. I walked through the library to the table where $G3 were collected. $A491 was talking of the morning of solstice. I told him that solstice was celebrated at night. Then he showed me the reference car at the end of the shelves in the library. It had a calendar of solstice on it. I thought of the Festival of Lights.
11995 December 06
The campus was very nice. It had small oddly shaped quadrangles, with neo-gothic architecture. The area we were in was a dorm section. The small quadrangles were outlined by buildings and stone railings. Stairs led from one quadrangle to another, as the section of campus seemed to be on many different levels. I walked across the top of the hill, only going up and down a couple of stairs at a time. I was setting a run for $G4. I looked over one of the stone railings and down the steep hill at the edge of the campus. There was a forest at the edge of the campus, with a drive running along its edge. I wanted to run them down the stairs and make a loop through the lower section of campus. I was worried that it would be too long of a trail, however. I had already set the trail for quite a distance. My mother was upset at the trail. She thought that it was too much. Then $G4 came running into the quadrangle. They gathered, as it was the end of the run. It was time to order pizza.
There was a man taking photographs of students at the university. He walked down the hallway of the female dorm. He asked one of the girls in one of the rooms if he could take her picture for the yearbook. He had some personal belongings of the women with which they could pose. The girl shied away. The man walked to the next room. An austral girl answered the door. She had long hair, which was woven into thin braids. The man asked if he could take her picture for the yearbook. She was unsure. He showed her some of the props that he had. He had a purple dinosaur doll that belonged to her. She did not trust the man and called the police. A policeman from the main security counter came over to her section of the mall. The main corridor of the mall was white and very bare. A silver cross grating was down over the girl’s room. She pointed out the photographer to the police officer. The policeman and the photographer knew each other. The policeman told the girl that he was safe, and that it was part of the photographer’s normal job to take pictures of people with some of their belongings. The photographer decided to take the items he had and lock them up in his room. The guard walked with him. They placed it in one of the large rooms at the mall and secured the metal grate. Then we saw another man sneak by. We decided to follow him. He slipped around the corner and went down the stairs of $P19 and into the basement. We were following him, being quiet so that he did not notice. I watched him as he ran down the stairs. He was a tall thin austral man, with a white outfit and a black hat. I ran down the stairs after him and caught up to him. He was surprised to be followed. We banged heads as i tried to capture him.
11995 December 07
I was sitting at the table with a couple of other people. We were talking about the abusive man. He was not nice to his family. The girl with me was upset. There were several other people in the house. I walked away from the table and started out of the house. I had to go get something from the car. I walked out into the yard between the buildings. Then i noticed the comet in the sky. It was approaching the planet, and it was very bright. The light blazed through the sky and shined down on the ground. I ran back into the back of the house through the large plate-glass doors. I had to get out of the light because it was not good for you. $K3 and $K4 looked out of the kitchen window at the glow on the ground outside, on the back porch. I looked out of the window in the back bedroom. I could see a small lizard running across the ground. It was running away from a larger monster. I had to hide in the small room. There were people after us. I watched through the small window as the monster caught DJ. The monster was some kind of android creature. The large robot then started to search the house for us. We were not from this place. The androids who ran the city were hunting us down. We had special powers that the locals did not have. The other girl, who was with us, was a telekinetic. We had to be careful in the streets. I walked out of the garage and down the narrow streets of the city. I was in a tightly housed suburb. The main tower of the city was off to my left. It could see me if i acted out of place. I walked casually down the streets. I just had to make it to another safe place. Then i noticed the red poles on the city corners following me with their electronic eyes. They rotated with me as i passed. They were suspicious of me. I was in danger. I walked into a street where i was out of sight of the main tower. Then i started running. The red columns could follow me, but i had to get away. I turned left in one of the narrow corridors and hid in a garage. There was a woman in the house. She came down the stairs. I hid back by the laundry machine, hoping that she would not see me. She came into the room to do laundry. I came out from between the machines. She was startled and ran back up stairs. I hoped that she would not turn me in. I started to run out of the room when i saw a red ball moving down the hall through the blinds of the wooden door. It was one of the droids. The droid saw me and attacked. I beat it off and broke it. More would come. I quickly ran back into the room and grabbed my camera. It was somewhere behind the machines. I dug for it for a moment before i found it. Then i broke out of the room and ran down the hall. I tried to lose myself in the city. Then i ran into a race. There were many people running around me. It was part of a race. I put on one of the race hats and started running with the group. The droid following me could not keep track of me and lost me in the crowd. I followed the runners down the street. We rounded a corner and i slowed down. The corner turned off to the right, and i slipped to the inside of the corner and started to walk with the crowd. This was the exchange point where the runners switched to their bikes. A man ran past me and into the driveway. He hopped onto his bike and started off. I hoped that no one would notice me leaving the race. I walked across the wooden floor of the tavern, trying to avoid people. I passed the table of people and started heading up the stairs. Then i noticed Curly Washburn from City Slickers standing at the top of the stairs. He was in dark cowboy clothing and was waiting for a fight. I was afraid that he would stop me and find out who i was. Then i noticed Lauren Green standing at the bottom of the stairs. He was the one facing off with the other man. They were both dressed in cowboy outfits. Lauren was wearing a leather vest, unbuttoned in front. I started up the stairs past them. Then i noticed the missing step. I had to hop from one wooden step to one several steps up. I jumped the gap and continued. I then realized that it was the gap that was keeping the two cowboys apart. I passed the one at the top of the stairs without incident and headed across the balcony. I came to two closed doors at the side of the museum. No one was around, so i tried my powers on them. I tried to get them to open. It did not work. I walked through the doors and into the museum. People were gathered there at an exhibit. On the upper terrace, something had just happened. Batman was there. I remembered him being there earlier in the day for the same thing, but i though that it might have been a dream. Batman had just saved the day. I wondered how he always did it by himself. I wondered if he ever did a story with others. Just then, i saw Superman speed down to the ground on the other side of the terrace. He was sneaking in. I wondered about Superman’s accident. He walked toward the edge of one of the terraces. I watched him as i walked on the terrace a step below. It was Christopher Reeves. He was still a little wobbly as he walked to the edge of the stairs. He was wearing a bluish-gray felt costume. It was a Batman costume form the television series. Superman seemed real strange. Ho was not ever wearing a mask. Then i noticed that he left his helmet at the edge of the stairs. I sat down at the top of the stairs. $A157 and someone else was there .I thought about how i liked the comic book version of Batman a lot better. He seemed more realistic. He has a communicating dual personality. I sat down about half way down the stairs, where they started to double back on the right, heading down to a lower terrace. $A157 and the other person were talking about Melrose Place. Then they started to talk about me in the bar. It was an embarrassing story. I walked through the double doors and down into the basement of $P19. The bar was dark. There was nothing going on down here. I did not know what to do. $A424 was telling stories about me in the bar room of $P19. The orientation of the house was off. I walked back up the stairs and toward the woman by the brook. She had two dogs with her. I started to feed the smaller one. He jumped at the food i was holding out for him. The larger dog just sat there. The owner did not approve of me feeding the dog under the table. I tossed some food toward the other dog. It landed under his nose. He was a bloodhound, and had a hard time finding it at first. I started talking to the woman. I told her about unbleached flour. We were in the cafeteria. The people were joking about me coming all the way down to tell him about the flour. One of them started a joke: “Woke up this morning. . .”
11995 December 12
$G3 were gathering together in the room. They were standing around talking. $A119 was joking about his big butt. $G3 laughed about the jokes. They talked about other things. I walked out across the field. There was forest on both sides. It was green, but seemed grey. I walked along the dirt road. A lot of undergrowth was on both sides of the road. Then i saw the dirt trail off to the left. It ran down to the water edge of the small river. I turned around and headed back up the road. I came back to the grassy area on the right side of the road. A car was pulled off there, facing the creek. $F15 and $A492 were there. I opened the trunk of the car and grabbed a bottle of root beer from the boxes. I tried to open it, but it exploded. The bottle sprayed all over the driver’s side of the car.
11995 December 13
I was in the apartment house. The other person was there to meet me. It was a clandestine operation. We had to exchange information. I came to get the folder of stuff. The grave poster was part of it. I ran from the horse and out across the field. I was having problems running because of my knee. People were throwing rocks into the field. I was a spy, and i had to get my information across.
I was next to the car. It was parked by the curb. I stood on the sidewalk, putting things into the car. Then the other car pulled up. It hit the car we were with slightly as it pulled in. Then it pulled up to the curb in front of us. It had a red $P7 sticker. I went up to it and opened the passenger’s door. I had to repack the cars. My mother was driving the grey car in front. I asked her where the seat belts were. I did not see them across the seats. I pulled the seat belt out and the car started to pull away. I closed the door to the grey car and let my mother drive away. I would be following her in the other car. I started to head back to the other car when i noticed $K3 driving it away. She followed my mother. She did not realize that i was not in the car with my mother. I started walking after them. They took a right at the end of the road. I knew that they would have to round the block in order to get on the highway. I thought that i would cut them off on the other side of the city block. I did not want to get left behind. I thought about calling my mother on the cellular phone, which she kept in her car. Then i realized that i did not have her number on that phone. It was in my address book, which was in her car by my book bag. I did not make it around the block in time to catch them. I walked on to the house. I walked in the front door and looked around. It was $K3’s house in the city. I looked around, hoping i could contact them from here. They left no way of getting in touch with them. $K2’s room was on the back of the house. There was a guitar on the bed. It was a nice guitar. I was worried that they left me behind. I walked out the back door and started across the porch. Then i realized that the door was locked, and that i would not be able to get back in. I ignored it. They were traveling north on the highway by now. I started out across the yard. I decided i would fly down the hill in the back yard. I was having difficulty flying. Then i realized that i had a bee in my hair. It had just flown in. I tried to get it out.
11995 December 14
I wandered around the bookstore. I had already purchased the large brown book, which i held in my hands. It was from the shelf that i was looking over. I looked at the two paperbacks that were on the metal rack. I placed the brown book on the shelf while i looked. The two paperbacks were the same. I looked through them. One of them had blurry type, but the other was fine. I put them back and picked up the brown book. As i moved back, i knocked the paperbacks off of the shelves. I bent over to pick them up. The manager was watching me from the side wall, where he was talking on the telephone. I picked up the two books and put them back on the shelves. Then i checked the book i had to see if the receipt was still in it. There were two receipts in the book. I wondered which was mine. I went to toss the other in the garbage. As i did, i noticed a large insect abdomen in the trash.
11995 December 15
Guns ’n’ Roses were sitting on the bed in the upstairs bedroom at my grandmother’s house. They had just come from the concert hall. I talked to the members of the group. They seemed like nice people. I started playing with a tooth in my mouth. I realized that it had shattered. I played with it in my mouth. The tooth had broken into several different pieces. I was worried that it was falling apart. I continued talking to the band. Then my mother came up. I was worried what the band would think of her. They did not really seem like they approved of parents. I went downstairs and into the bathroom. I tried to look at my tooth in the mirror. I could see the several different pieces shuffling around each other. Then the tooth fell out. I tried to put it back in.
11995 December 16
I left the house and started walking down the street. I was in downtown $P14, near the floodplain on $P128. There were a lot of run down houses around the area. I walked down the muddy back alley. Then i decided to get in the car and drive. I saw the truck by the side of the chain-link fence as i drove away. In the house, people were talking. I talked to them awhile. I rode the car down the muddy road between the chain-link fence and the back o the warehouse. The road was a little muddy from the rain. There were wooden blocks across the road, almost like speed bumps. I jumped over the boards in the mud as i went. I turned the corner as the road ran between the two run-down buildings. I came to the end of the dirt road in the downtown $P14. It ended on $P128 somewhere on the floodplain. There was a parking lot and small store to my left, at the corner. It was raining, and had been for quite some time. The water level downtown had been rising. I turned around and headed back down the road from which i had come. I traveled east on the road, as i had done to get where i was. This time, the road was covered with puddles. There was a large puddle collected between the two wooden blocks that i had gone over before. It was filled with muddy water. I rode over the puddle and came out in the parking lot by the small ornate building. The building was octagonal in shape and featured like on old train station. There were broken stones on the wet street as i walked along. I was riding $X17 over the muddy street. She was mad at me and tried to bite my leg. I pulled back on the reigns and tried to ride her correctly. I was not doing it correctly. I was doing something wrong with the bit. She was mad at me. I must have been pulling back too hard. She did not want to go and kept reaching around with her head to try to bite me. I ran away from her and ran around the porch of the small building. I went inside and closed the doors. I wondered what was happening out in the hall.
I walked down the dark street. It seemed like the edge of a city. There were shops and restaurants on either side of the street. They all had parking spaces in front of them and a small lot around me. The lights from the street and the front of the stores lighted the way. I walked along the left side of the road. Then i watched myself running on the roadside. I moved into the hallway of the house. There was someone out there following. There were shelves inset into the right side of the wall as i watched myself come down the corridor. I walked into the living room. The others had gathered there. We were preparing for an attack. The alien was out there. He would be coming for us. I remembered this from sometime before. This had already happened. The alien was coming. Then i realized that the house started rotating. This was not our doing. We were in the living room. There was a large picture window with individual frames in it, and thin curtains over it. I could see the other side of the building start to pass the window as the building moved. I had a pistol. I remembered the alien attack from before. The alien had spared my life for some reason, even though he had killed everyone else. We had to prepare for the attack. The alien was close. I went into the other room at the back of the house. The woman there gave me a small pin gun. I did not really think that it would do much good. I hid under the table behind the couch and shelves. The alien would walk by, and i could shoot at him. Then the power went out. I did not really feel safe here. I was scared. Nick Nolte went to check the fuse box. We all waited for the alien. He suddenly started attacking from somewhere in the house. I ran toward the back of the house and up the stairs. There was a small room at the top. It was a bathroom. It had red shag carpeting and no furnishings. The outside wall was open to the rest of the house. I walked over by the small white plastic dome chair. This would be a good ambush spot. I waited for the alien to come by. Then i stepped out the small window of the house. I stepped out onto the light-grey tar-shingled roof. The house was rounded and oddly shaped. There were small round windows below me. I could not get in front of tem. People would be able to see me from inside. The alien was attacking people in there. I thought about jumping off of the house and sneaking out across the lawn. Then i noticed the alien on the lawn. The house was still rotating. I stood still on the house so that the alien would not see me. Then a young boy jumped off of the house from one of the nearby windows. He started running toward the neighbours’ house. Then he was hit by a bullet. He fell through the glass covering over the neighbours’ garden. The bullet had come from inside. The alien was in the hallway. He was wearing special vision goggles that allowed him to see the boy fleeing. He shot his bullet through the walls to hit the boy. I thought about how advanced the weapons were. I imagined the boy running away, as if he had made it. I went back into the window of the house. I came to the top of the stairs, which curved down the outer wall of the house. To my left was a tall black cube. It was rotating opposite the house. The house must be rotating around the tall black column. I watched myself climb behind the cube. I stood still against it as i rotated inside the room. I waited until i was on the back side of the column before i jumped off. The wall curved very close to the cube here. I could hide here and wait for the alien. I could shoot from here. I remembered attacking the alien before. I shot at him several times. These must have been alternate realities because they were not the same as the one i was in.
I was with the other. We were being followed. We got off of the airplane and walked through the city. We were out West somewhere. We got into the car and started driving. The highways were crowded but moving quite fast. I turned up the on ramp and merged with the other traffic. There was an empty spot on the highway into which we slipped. I looked into the rearview mirror to see a large group of cars coming from behind us. There was a highway overhead. We drove down the road and out into the country. There were tan open fields of grassy rolling hills stretching around us. I looked behind us as we rounded the corner to the right. I could see the city we had left in the distance. I was amazed by the West. It was so open, and there was such empty space between the cities. Then we realized that the people might be following us in another car. We pulled into another city. The highways still rode overhead on cement bridges. I hoped that we would lose our followers in the city traffic. I woke up on the bus and looked around. The seats next to me were empty. The others must have moved to other seats. They were next to me when i went to sleep. I checked the inside pocked of my trench coat for the yellow box. It was still there. It was a biological disease. I had to get it safely to someplace. Then a man walked up from the back of the bus. He stood at the edge of the seats. He was wearing a yellow rain coat and a small hat. He was one of the bad guys. He had a bushy mustache. I put my feet across the seat next to me so that he could not sit down near me. He sat in the row behind me instead. I did not trust him there. He could get the box if i fell asleep again. I got up from my seat and walked toward the front of the bus. The others were sitting in their new seats, near the front of the bus. I must have been snoring as i slept. They must have been disturbed and moved to the front of the bus. I told them about the bad guy. Then i went up to the driver and told him about the bad guy. I told him that i was carrying a disease in the yellow box and that i could not let anyone get it. The bus driver told me that it was already too late. The bus station had been warned of a biohazard. We were going to get captured. I got off the bus and headed up the corridor that led into the terminal. The corridor had reddish-brown tiles and curved to the right as it widened slightly. There was a boy walking ahead of me. As we got to the end of the corridor, i could see the security team standing by the entrance to the main room. They stopped the boy and started asking him questions. I kept walking, following the curve of the wall on the right. They did not notice me. I was surprised but happy. I rounded the corner and started down the hall of the hospital. I hoped that they were not following me. I had to get out of here. I looked for the front door of the hospital. I passed a reception desk on my right as i came to a corner of the hospital. There were windows in front of me and to my left. I looked out there. I could see the green grass and trees at the edge of a small parking lot. The hospital was in a suburb. There was also a very strong wind blowing across the trees. There was a heavy windstorm outside. I turned to the right and started down the other hall. Just then, the speaker overhead announced a tornado. I paused and thought about it. The corridor did not go anywhere but into a ward. I stopped just inside the narrow doorway of the ward. There was a drawn curtain in front of me. I turned around and started to head back out. As i passed through the white doorway, i watched the nurse to my right, who seemed to be sleeping on a bed just inside the door. Then the overhead speaker announced rockets. I stopped. I thought that the announcement was strange and asked about it. The doctor wanted to know if i was a patient. I left the ward and started to round the corner at the corner of the hospital. I then noticed a set of stairs off to the right. A maintenance person was loading things from a small elevator with a dull-yellow door. The grey hallway went off from the stairs below the floor level. There was a block metal railing running from the side of the new hallway I looked into the small doorway where the stairs ran from. I could see the grey corridor below me. It did not seem to run anywhere. I would not be able to escape down it. I started back down the hall from which i had originally come. I had to get out of the building. Then i saw a stairwell on the left. It went through and headed for the stairs. Then i realized that they were not stairs. It was an emergency slide for the handicapped. It curved down in a spiral. I started down and then realized down crowded the passage was. It was so narrow. I was worried that i might get stuck. I headed back up the slide and ran for the door through which i had come. I realized that the door was a small portal is the wall, and i could not go back.
11995 December 17
I came into work for $A14. He was down the long narrow corridor with fourties-style wood-glass walls on either side. He came over to check on how i was doing. I was a couple minutes early. I used to have some other job, but i had nothing now. I walked into the long thin lab room and turned on the computer. Then i looked around and noticed that the monitor was missing. I looked around the room for it but could not find it. $A14 was upset. He wanted to know who would take the monitor. He left and went back to his office to see if he could find out what happened. I looked under the counter and noticed an old television set. It was not a monitor. I went outside, into the hall. After a while, i came back into the lab. A cheap monitor had been hooked up to the system. The resolution was not that good. I noticed that the screen was messed up. I would have to shut down the system. I left and walked down the city street. The read went down hill and curved to the right slightly. I watched myself and some other friends walk toward me. Then a car swerved around the corner and passed us. We watched it go by. The driver was sitting in the passenger’s seat. The driver had a hand mirror, which the passenger grabbed. They were wrestling in the car for it. The car swerved into the other lane and hit a tan car, which was parked across the road. I realized that we would have to wait here to make a police report. We walked past the accident. I turned back, realizing that i had forgotten about the police report. The police were already at the scene. I walked into the small bedroom and stood against the wall. The white paint on the wall was textured and chipping off. I picked at the paint and found a cinderblock house behind.
11995 December 18
The aliens kidnapped me. They were trying to teach me things. I was special in some way. I felt good about being here. We were in a large hall. It reminded me of the front of $P98. The hall had a tall ceiling and had the sense of a greek temple. A light came in from behind us, where the front of $P98 was. I was in a line of other people. I looked down the line. I noticed $F15 three or four people down from me. We were all being taught and asked questions. I felt that all of the answers came easy to me. I felt that i was very special to be taught, and to understand all of the answers. Then i was asked a question about the man who was sitting on the bench on the left wall. I looked to the left. I saw the stone bench against the wall, but there was no one sitting on it. I realized that it was a zen riddle. It seemed easy. I simply had to accept the illogical situation as part of reality. It did not appear to the senses, yet it could be processed as an event. I answered the question. It seemed that i answered correctly.
I was driving the car down the dark read. We were heading southward, along the side of the cliff. There was an overlook to the left, which looked down over the city and the river. $K2 was lying down in the back seat. He was asleep, and i felt protective of him. I pet his head in comfort. Then we saw the other car coming from the other direction. It was the bad guys. They flashed their lights at us. We were worried about them getting in. $F1 turned the car around and pulled into the driveway of an overlook. It was dark out, and he stopped the car and turned off the lights. The bad guys drove back down the hill and then drove past us. They did not see us in the dark. We walked back down the dark road by the school building. There was water coming down the left side of the road where the stream was. Waves moved over the surface of the water. There was a flood from all of the rain. I looked up the stream to see the falls. The water was quite heavy over them. I clung to the edge of the chain-link fence and looked over the water. I swung around the edge of the fence and looked over the water. The water was moving very fast over the channel. I thought that this might be a little dangerous, so i swung back around the fence and walked across the roof. The rood was tilted and had uneven gables protruding from it. We looked out over the city. It was still dark outside, and we could see all of the city’s lights. Then the lights went out one block at a time. I wondered what had happened. The lights came on one block at a time. It reminded me of the time i was in the mall with $F4 and we saw the store lights come on, and i told him how that reminded me of the lights in a city coming on after a power outage. I moved over to another part of the roof, on the other side of a protrusion. It was daylight as i looked out over the city. I wondered how it became daylight so fast. It was really odd. Then the city lights went out again. I walked around the camera, which was mounted at the edge of the roof. $Z walked behind it and bumped into one of the legs. The camera tipped over. We tried to adjust it to get it to point out over the city again. There was a man coming from across the roof. We quickly tried to fix the camera before we got in trouble. We got it adjusted and then headed out across the terrace gardens, which were along the side of the steep hill. We walked into the building and went down the stairwell. When we got to the bottom, we walked out into the tall narrow corridor. The walls were cobalt grey, and there were uneven niches in the side.
11995 December 19
I heard the news report about the big fire at $P137. It had destroyed a lot of forest area. They said that it started at a house. I could see the back porch of the cabin. Some kids were cooking over a fire. There was a grill across he fire pit, and a log cabin that had light wood finish on the sides. The back lawn was well cut and surrounded by tall pine trees with no lower branches. Then i saw some sparks fall from the grill. The sparks ignited the dry yellow grass around. Then the heavy wind blew the fire around the forest. The fire spread very quickly across the forest. I heard the news report about the fire doing a lot of damage. There were many areas in New York that were closed due to the fire. I waited in the cabin for $F12 to come.
11995 December 20
There was a science exhibit in the department store. The demonstrator was hitting a thin blue chord to watch it vibrate. We watched the waves travel along it. There was a tall exhibit with blue water flowing through clear plastic tubes. The man described the water gates. The water level was not equalized because of the way the gates worked. They should balance themselves because of the surrounding air pressure. He suggested to the children that the gates be reset and the experiment run again. I asked him about the equalized levels. I thought about a room with doors open to equalize the pressure. Then i noticed that someone had let the wild cat out. I did not want to be around.
I ran into the Pope in a restaurant. We talked a little. We got along very well, and he thought that i was an interesting person. There were other people around the dinner table with us. $A47 was on the others side of the Pope from me at the circular table. He started to ask the Pope a question. The Pope smiled and turned to me. “What were you going to ask?”, he said. I realized that he wanted to know what was the question that i was going to ask $A47. I realized that the Pope was very perceptive, but i told him that i did not have a question for $A47. $A47 looked at us. The Pope smiled. He liked me. The Pope then invited to have dinner with him. I was flattered. I felt somewhat special. I wondered what i should dress like. How formal would it be? People started walking out of the room. I walked past the building on campus. They were designed like old Ivy-League dormitories. I crossed the small quadrangle diagonally and went into the archway. I walked up the stairs and started out the front door. Someone was coming the other way through the dark corridor. I stopped to let the person pass, as the person was getting nervous. I looked up the hill. There was another country on top. I was not sure how i would fit in. I walked up and into the restaurant. The maitre d’ started to harass me. I was not of the social class to be in such a restaurant. I yelled back at him, and he left us alone. He was persistent, so i pushed him into a small alcove off of the main lobby. He fell into some of the loosely draped red curtains along the walls. I walked back to my table. I was waiting for some other people to arrive. The waiter brought me a large green tray. I had already paid for dinner, though. They were trying to get rid of me. The thought that bringing me another tray of green stuff would make me leave, since i had already paid the check. They told me that it was vichyssoise. I was not going to fall for their tricks. I ate the Mexican dip instead. I held the large green foam cube next to me. I took bites of it. They did not expect me to remain in the restaurant in such a disgraceful manner, but i would show them. They gave it to me so that i would get tossed out. The large green cube was very sticky. I did not have my shirt on, and it was sticking to my chest as i held it. I ate pieces of it in front of the waiters. I started to walk around the small red room of the restaurant. Then some friends of mine came in from the other room. They walked through the door, across the small raise in the room i was in, and down the red-carpeted stairs. The rugs had a gold oriental pattern to them. I still had the cube in my hands, but i greeted them anyway. I finished up the cube and headed up the stairs and into the other room. They were friends i had been waiting for. I decided to wash up in the lavatory. I walked down the hall on the other side of the restaurant. There were people standing around. I opened the lavatory door and found that the toilets were exposed to the door from sight. I did not want to use them, so i walked back out. I walked to the other side of the restaurant, from which my friends had come. I followed the corridor into another room. The room opened to the right, and there were a lot of people standing around. I started through the crowd. Then i noticed $A493 coming the other way. He was walking past with a girl. I was wondering if it was really he. Then i noticed $A2 following him. I stopped $A2 and asked him it that was really who i thought it was. $A2 said that it was $A494. I was correct. I introduced myself to $A2, and he remembered me. Several other kids from $P31 were there. They all looked so young. I thought that it was odd to run into them in a foreign country like this. They told me that i looked young as well. I talked to them for a while before i continued down the corridor. I came into the cement stairwell at the end of the hall and saw the red meter on the wall to the right. The meter had a padlock on it so that it could not be tampered with. I looked over the red box on the wall. $Z mentioned something about a key for the lock. I looked at the lock, The lock was very thick, but the brace it was clipped around was rather thin. I should be able to break it. I tried banging it. Then we noticed the guards down the hall, toward the party. I backed away from the wall and moved over by the railing, where they could not see me. I waited until they were gone before i went back. I bent the lock until the brace broke off. Then i rotate the dial a little. The ventilation fan in the window speeded up. I turned it back down. I pulled the red tank away from the wall and started across the roof, which overlooked the back of the building. I walked across the lower roof and then climbed up to the upper roof. I turned the knobs on the red tank to speed up the fans. I was going to let them burn out. I ran over the main roof of the building. There were small windows on the flat part of the roof. They looked down into the ballroom, where the party was. I remembered these windows from when i was down in the party. I hoped that the spy would not see me from below. I quickly crossed the windows and squeezed through the thin space between the dark-grey service tower and the tall window structure over the main hall. I started down the other slope of the roof. I propped the tank up against the top of the roof and started heading down. Then the tank started rolling. It rolled off of the roof and exploded. I looked up. There was a small white house on stilts on the large body of water. Some men in a boat near the shore were fishing. They looked up as they heard the explosion. I had to get out of here. I slid down the roof to the edge of the canvas tent. The material of the tent was ripping. The explosion had damaged the building. I swung through the tear in the canvas as it gave away. I grabbed one of the tent poles and slid to the ground. The pole was wood, and there were bunks on the right wall of the tent as i climbed down to the cement floor of the basement garage. I started walking across the room. The walls were lined with tool cabinets and supplies. $F14 was outside in a car. She started to come in when she saw me arrive. A person told me that she wanted to see me. I thought that it was strange to see her now. I opened the main garage door so that she could get in. I started talking to the other people in the garage with me. I felt uncomfortable.
11995 December 22
I was in the field across the street from my parents’ house. The vegetation was rather low. I remembered when it was just field grass. Now it was covered with thicket shrubs. There were other people walking through the browning autumn vegetation. I started to fly above the field. I circled by where the people were. Then i noticed the power lines. I was careful of them as i passed. I had to glide carefully between them. Then i went into the kitchen of my parents’ house. My grandfather was there. He was visiting. I felt uncomfortable in the kitchen as he talked so i went upstairs. I looked out the window and saw $K1. She was talking to our grandfather, my mother’s father. I wondered if she knew about his dreams. I ran downstairs.
11995 December 23
I was in the large dining room. There were two rows of long tables set up. The military men entered and seated themselves for dinner. I was seated in the next room over. The two rooms were separated by a square archway. There was a large American flag across the dining room wall, opposite me. All of the other walls were smooth and plain. Everyone stood and saluted while the national anthem was being said. I stood up as well. I did not feel right saluting, however, so i placed my hand over my heart. I had to go to the bed soon. I woke up early. I should sleep more. I lay on the couch, waiting until it was a little later. $F10 was awake in the main room. I looked at the red numbers of the digital clock. It was 4:48. $F10 always got up early. He walked into the bathroom. $F52 was there. They talked for a few minutes. Then $F10 came out and closed the door. He walked into the bedroom, where i was, and sat down on the edge of the bed to say hello. I talked to him, but was hesitant of him touching me. It no longer felt right.
11995 December 24
I was on the balcony, looking down over the room. There were many alumni coming back. I felt uncomfortable. I had nothing to say to any of them. I left and walked down the long hallway. IT was dark and had rounded edges, like a tunnel. I came into the open room. There was a girl slicing fruit on the table. $A14 was upset with her. She was not doing it properly. She continued slicing the grapefruit anyway. I watched her and noticed how the slices looked like meat. He mentioned that the chicken was not good for breakfast. She continued cutting anyway. I wanted to mention that people in the south ate chicken for breakfast all the time, but i did not say anything. I knew that they would get mad with me.
11995 December 25
The city was full of old brownstone buildings. I walked out to the car and drove down the street. I was looking for my car. The police were after me. I had to find my car and get out of here. I came up to an old car. It was not mine, but i took it anyway. I drove out onto the back roads in the edges of the city. Then i pulled into the parking lot of the plaza. The police pulled down the drive and into the parking lot after me.
I was in the upstairs apartment of the house. The man downstairs had turned on the gas again. I could smell it, and i knew that it was dangerous. I opened up my doors and windows. Then i plugged in the smoke detector. They detected the gas. Then i went down the outside stairwell. It was a warm day outside. There were people having a party downstairs. The landlord asked me why i had the windows open. I told him that the smoke detectors had gone off because of the gas. He was mad that i had caught him turning the gas on again.
11995 December 26
$K9 and $K1 were in the room. $K1 had a small short sword. $K9 did not want to leave her alone. He was afraid that she might kill herself. She was pregnant, and she was really depressed about having the baby. I walked into the kitchen of the house. The airplane we were in was old. It was raining outside, and i could see water leaking in from the small window at the edge of the counter. I called the steward and told her about the leak in the window. She said that she knew about it and that it was all right. She pulled the shade down over the window and left. I thought about the city outside.
11995 December 27
I was in the park with $G4. the park was a small grassy area in the middle of a city block. It sloped down hill slightly. $G4 were off running, and i was waiting around by the corner. The streets at the corner came together at a fourty-five-degree angle, and there were sidewalk paths crisscrossing the park. $A322 was at the corner. He had found a watch on the ground. He gave me the watch. I wondered whose it was. I walked around in the snow looking fro the owner. I asked several of the hashers if they had lost their watch. The hashers were seated at the table outside. I asked them if anybody had lost their watch while they were all together. They started to leave the table. No one was really interested. I walked to the building and down the hall of $P7. I was wearing black pants. I wondered if that would be all right. I knew that $P7 had changed their uniform to blue jacket and tan pants. I hoped that no one would mind. I could not remember which class i was supposed to go to next. It had been too long since i had been here. I walked out the front door of the school and down the steps between the two protruding sections of the building. There were a couple of people working on the stone wall just to the left of the entrance path. It was at the edge of a flowerbed in front of the school. I was expected to work on it. I was not happy. I felt that i should be doing something better. I walked over to the mall. $F25 was moving some of the dirt in the flowerbed, which was held up by the wall. Then he uncovered part of a human skull. It shocked us at first. I thought that we would have to call the police. I looked up to the front of the headmaster’s house, which was not the same house as it used to be. $F4’s family had a different house. $A184 was there by the garden, and he wondered what we should do. I looked at the skeleton again. I then noticed that it was out of proportion. I lifted the head from the dirt. The rest of the skeleton was attached. It was a rubber skeleton. I pulled it from the dirt. We then wandered around the party for a while. I was board and wanted to leave. We started to exit the gate. $A62 was at the gate. He was weary of us leaving but let us pass. We got on the bus at the gate to the estate and pulled out of the drive. $P7 was to our left, but the turned right. We realized that the bus was not going directly back to $P7. We wondered whether we should have walked. Then the bus turned right again and headed even farther away from the school. We thought that we might be on the wrong truck. We were coming to the intersection with the main road. It was Route 20, $P174. We knocked on the back window of the cab and asked the driver of the pickup truck if we were going in the right direction. He said that we were, and so we sat back in the bed of the truck.
11995 December 28
I walked through the workshop. There was a square fish tank on one of the shelves. There was a fish swimming stationary in the center of the tank. I lifted the cubical tank and tipped it slightly. The confetti-like gravel at the bottom bubbled around. I could see a small shark in it. It was swimming in the darkness of the fluttering gravel. It was shaped like a tiger shark. I put the tank down. I could see the single fish on top again. There were many others below, hidden in the churning gravel. The fish on top had his gills open wide. The tank was too small for all of the fish, and there was not enough oxygen in the water. I went to look for a larger tank. I noticed the hoses on the back of the small tank. I looked at them carefully to make sure that they were connected to a pump. I lifted the bilge pump from the box. It was some kind of construction equipment. It must have been used during the storm. The storm was past now. I had to get back to work. I walked into $P138 and down the main corridor. I hung my jacket up in the office. The oriental girls were in the other room talking. I felt left out. I did not really care if it was late. Work did not seem to matter much. I came to the center of the hall, where the counter and window were on the right hand side. I opened the large service window. The sky on the other side was bright red. It was a scene. There were trees that looked like cacti along the desert floor. They were props. I thought that it looked quite beautiful through the window. I put film in my camera and tried to take a picture. I was having trouble focusing on the window, though. I kept passing the focal point. Then i kept getting the red tile around the window in my picture. I took the photograph of the round circles. Then a woman pulled the shade down over the window. I opened the window once i got the camera adjusted. The trees were gone. I was disappointed. I walked up the hall to the left and walked into the door of the cafeteria. The trees were stacked along the back wall. They had been cleaned up. There was a woman with me. She walked over to the other end of the cafeteria and asked the principle if we could take pictures of the trees. He agreed that we could, but did not want us taking pictures of people. I left the room and walked across the campus. I crossed the bridge over the river. I rode my bicycle between the cement posts on the bridge and past the pedestrians. I was in a foreign country. The pedestrians would not be able to understand me. I reached the other side of the bridge and turned down the road to the left. Then i noticed the markers at the edge of the road. They said that the road was only open in July. I turned around and headed back over the bridge. Then i noticed that the signs on the bridge said that the bridge was only open in April. I felt that i would be safe as long as i rode slowly. I drove down the other road. I knew that the road was not a dead end this time of year. I rode down the country road, through the forest. I turned at the end of the road and drove into the dirt overlook across the road. Then i realized that the brakes in the car did not work. The car rolled up the slight hill before the cliff at the overlook and then rolled back a little before coming to a stop. I looked out over the forest. It was beautiful. I wanted to take pictures of the trees over the forest. The sun was setting in the distance. I got out of the car and looked for a good view to get a picture from. I looked down the roads as i walked. I had forgotten which road i had come down. I looked back over the rich green forest. There were wonderful trees and cacti.
11995 December 30
I was thirsty. I looked around the room for the sink. I found it and poured myself a glass of water. I drank some of it. I went to get another glass from the sink in the science lab. The narrow pipe nozzle was on the tap. I did not have a glass with me, so i cupped my hands. Then i noticed that there were too many bubbles in the water. It had a lot of gas in it. So i drove down the road with my mother. There were natural springs on the side of the road. They would have better water. We pulled into the campsite. There were quite a few campers lined up on the grass. They were all streamline campers. I parked the car into one of the open parking spots on the grass. There were some picnic tables to the right of the parked automobiles. Then i realized that i should have parked the car in one of the other spots. I had left it where the campers go. I would move it in a little while, but i had to find something to drink. I walked toward the building of the festival, where the drinking fountains would be.
I was in the house. Some people were gathering there. $F12 was there. He nodded to me as he passed, but did not say anything. I was hurt that he did not say anything. He was trying not to be obvious in some way. He was wearing a pair of running plastics. The pants were maroon and the jacket was blue with a maroon V-shaped stripe across the center. He had a blue bandana on his head. He was hanging out with the rest of the team. He could not acknowledge his friendship with me for some reason. I was patient. It had something to do with the fact that he was in training. The coach was on the other side of the run-down apartment room. I was upset that i could not speak to $F12. He must be running for the team now, and has to pretend that he does not know me. I left the room and walked down the street. I could not run with the team, and i was depressed. I started to walk quickly down the road. The team was far in front of me. I started to float as i went. I knew that others could not do that. I started bending from side to side, acting like i was surfing on the air. I went faster and faster down the dark tree-lined road. Then i flipped my feet over my head like some skateboarding stunt. Then i came into the suburb. I started going up the hill. Then i heard the bus coming up from behind me. I did not want the driver to see that i was walking home. I dodged behind one of the buildings. The bus was still coming. I flew over a block of houses and started heading home. I became disoriented. Everything looked different from the air. I was several blocks over from where i should have been. I turned right and sailed between the tall buildings. I took another right and crossed the lobby of the library. Then i passed around the elevator shafts and came back through the reading room. I could see the bus passing on the other side of the room. There were tall stacks of books to my left. I walked down the hall and into the science room in $P7. It was $A87’s old room. $F12 was there with the team. It was the ultimate team. He was still reluctant to talk to me. Then the team walked into the back room. I could not get in there because i was not one of them. I missed him and wished that we could talk. I walked out into the hall and to the left. It seemed like the old back corridor in the science wing of $P7. I walked into the next room on the right. This is where i had been staying. $G3 were gone for a little while, so i was staying here. It was $A489’s room. I talked to the other brothers that were there as i put things on the bed, which was up against the right wall. I should be out of here by now. I joked with the other person. I got dressed, but i looked like a nerd. I pulled my pants up around my waist and put my calculator in my shirt pocket. I then picked up the small date book. It was $A489’s. I walked out into the hall, where i ran into $A489. I told him that i would be out of his room soon. I asked if he was bothered by my staying there. I walked down the hall. I walked down the hall. I wanted to talk to $F10, but he was out with the team. I walked outside. $Z was with me, and she was female. I watched the football team as we walked down the edge of the quadrangle. $Z was worried that i was interested in them. I looked for the ultimate team. I could not see $F10 on the field. $Z started poking me to try to get my attention. I flipped her in jest. She squirmed as i fought back. One of her white shoes fell off.
11995 December 31
We were hiking up the mountain trail. There was a lot of snow on the ground, and the trail wound up along the edge of the rock. To our left was a valley. The people with us were getting cold. Then we came to the area where the mountain trail curved left along the inside of the range. There was a campsite off to our left. Then we found the start in the snow. It was a large silver star, and one of the tips had been broken off. We found the tip as well. The others fanned out across the groomed lawn of the campground. $F10 and i sneaked off into the bushes to hide. We were playing games with the other people. I was in the bushes behind the camper. We would not let the others find us. I had a flashlight with me. I shined it down the length of the trailers to get $F10’s attention. Then my hat started to get in my eyes. I tried to pull it up but i could not see. I had to get it out of my eyes in case someone was coming. I pulled it off. There was someone sneaking up behind me. It was $F10. He was just passing. I was glad that it was not one of the others. Then i ran back up across the mountain trail and looked over the valley campground. I could see the fence surrounding the camp. $F10 and i were hiding behind the camper before, but the gate to the fence. The electric pole was near there, where the power ran into the campsite. I stood on the rise, looking over the trailer. I could see people seated inside the trailer. The yellowish light from the trailer shined through a large window. The people were at the table, getting ready to eat. I ran into the kitchen and across the room. The people were surprised and annoyed. I could not let them catch me. I jumped over the table, which had food on it. I ran into the back room of the kitchen and jumped out through the small window on the front wall. We needed to shut down the power. That would get their attention. I ran out back where the boxes were. $F10 arrived. I wondered whether it was time to end the game.
I was playing with the band. We finished and started walking across the dry soil. I asked John Lennon if it was okay. I told him that i was unsure of my singing. He said that it was okay. Paul walked past and hurried ahead over the rise. George ran up the sandy slope to the right. I was still unsure of my music talents. John assured me that i was okay.
I was driving up the hill in the suburb. The road curved to the right slightly as it approached the intersection. To the right was a building on a large lawn. It had an overhanging car port off of the side, where the driveway looped toward the door. Then i saw the Star Wars bus coming down the road from the other direction. I was supposed to meet it. I turned the car around and followed the bus into the lot of the grey building. The bus pulled into the drive loop by the car port.